#honestly i still really dont like how this one came out
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n1k0laa5 · 3 days ago
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I saw your recent post about asks you've gotten and not answering them all, and I get it, but I'm wondering if mine is one that fits into what you were talking about. I sent one in a few days ago (not that you'll know which one was mine, since I was and am anonymous) saying I tried everything and I hit a low point because while I persisted for multiple years and did all the advice everyone gave me, I got no results, at all. I know you said in a post that if you say you tried everything (and haven't shifted) then no you haven't, but I dont understand that, because I genuinely did everything everybody says, and I listened to myself and my instincts just as much, and worked on my mindset, and I've never been negative like this, ever, until a few days ago, and it's been 5 years. I understand if you don't want to answer this ask either, as I do understand everything you said in your post, but I'm honestly desperate and I need help, and I genuinely don't know what others answer asks like you do, as I haven't been using tumblr for shifting for that long. I apologize for this, I get why you might not answer, but I've hit a brick wall and I'm genuinely lost, and nobody I've asked has answered so I figured I'd just try one more time.
we’re gonna have a real conversation.
i’ll be honest—i probably deleted your ask. not because of YOU specifically, i deleted half of them because i’m tired, i’m stressed out and suddenly i have the pressure to preform and give information to those in need… you can tell from the sudden 180 from how “professional” and “smart” my responses sounded.. to now.
but i’ll answer this one.
because you didn’t come here for comfort. not really. you came here because you want to understand why this shit feels like a cosmic joke, and maybe, deep down, you want someone to slap the illusion out of your skull and remind you who the fuck you are.
when i said “if you say you’ve tried everything and still haven’t shifted, no you haven’t,” i meant that shit. not to invalidate you. not to be cruel. but because the entire foundation of this reality is: what you assume is, what you persist in hardens, and what you believe reflects.
so when someone tells me “i’ve tried everything and nothing’s worked,” what they’re really saying is: i’ve tried everything EXCEPT changing the core belief that it’s not working.
because you said you’ve been doing this for five years. that’s a long fucking time to persist in trying. but what if your dominant state for five years has actually been trying to shift, not being shifted? what if all that time you spent assuming you’re still on the journey… was the very thing keeping the journey going?
and before you snap back with “but i affirmed that i already shifted!!! i imagined it!!!” i know you did. i know you did. i’m not denying your effort.
but effort ≠ embodiment.
it is entirely possible to do all the “right” things externally while internally reinforcing the opposite state. it’s possible to loop affirmations about being god while still identifying as the version who needs to prove it. it’s possible to visualize your DR every night while still believing that if you don’t wake up there, it didn’t work.
and that is the trap. the spiritual hamster wheel. the invisible leash that keeps you running in circles thinking “this next try will be it” when you were already it.
you said you listened to your instincts. you worked on your mindset. you stayed positive. but what if that too was part of the trap? what if the need to “fix” yourself, “heal” your mindset, “improve” your self-concept was just another way of telling yourself you weren’t already the version who has it?
because here’s the truth no one likes to hear: shifting doesn’t reward the purest heart or the hardest worker or the most dedicated scriptwriter. it doesn’t wait until you’ve ticked every LOA box. it doesn’t show up because you’ve earned it. it shows up when you decide it already has. when you stop trying. when you stop seeking. when you stop assuming that it’s something to get to, rather than something to be.
you’re not broken. you’re not missing a step. you’re just still operating from the belief that shifting is over there, and you’re still over here, trying to reach it. but the second you truly, fully, non-negotiably decide that it’s already yours? that this moment right here, this breath, this version of you reading this post is already the shifted one? the whole game changes.
but let me be real with you. if i handed this response to you five months ago, would you have heard it? really heard it? or would your brain have gone, “yeah yeah i know that already” and then moved on to the next method, the next void tutorial, the next subliminal hoping it’ll finally click? because that’s what most people do. they collect wisdom like junk mail. they read and scroll and save and nod along while never letting the information drop into embodiment. they read about being god. they don’t own it.
so here’s what i need you to understand:
the only reason you haven’t shifted is because you’ve continued to identify with the version of you who hasn’t.
it’s not about doing more. it’s about stopping the performance of “doing” altogether. it’s about burning the costume of the seeker and stepping naked into the version who has nothing left to prove.
and maybe right now your brain is screaming “but that’s so hard” or “i don’t know how.” but baby. that is still the voice of the version who hasn’t. that’s the character who believes they need to figure it out before they get the prize. and until you drop that character, you’ll be trapped in their loop. not because you’re cursed. not because it’s not meant for you. but because you keep choosing to play them.
i’m not gonna give you another list of tips. i’m not gonna give you a new technique. because none of that will help if you’re still identifying as the person who needs help. instead, i’m gonna ask you one question:
what would you feel right now if this was already your DR?
not “what would you do.” not “what would you affirm.”
just—what would you feel?
go there. sit in it. be with it. not for a minute. not for a night. forever.
that’s how you get out. not by begging for the door, but by realizing you were never locked in.
and if that pisses you off, good.
if that makes you cry, better.
if it makes something in your chest snap, crack, burn, perfect.
that’s the shell breaking. that’s the story dying. that’s the god in you remembering.
so no, i might not have answered your ask when it first came in. not because it wasn’t worthy. but because maybe you weren’t ready to hear this yet. and now? maybe you are.
maybe this time, when you read this, you won’t try to figure out what to do with it.
maybe this time, you’ll just let it become you.
and if so?
then welcome.
you just fucking shifted.
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coxmicrelief · 2 years ago
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ribbonknot · 1 year ago
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sometimes i feel like rn it's really understated just how bad things could be if trump wins. like, actually. i feel like it's being forgotten that despite how bad things are right now, they would surely get WORSE.
#i dont want biden to win either#but is there really a big enough politician on the democratic party who the (still conservative) american population would vote for#HILLARY didnt even win and she's a generally non-offensive white woman#i know its like voting for 2 evils. but lest we forget there is definitely a MORE evil one here#and i think its the one who unabashedly tried to flush stolen documents in his toilet#i think its the one who wants to build the iron dome#i really wish i could say not to vote for biden. because trust i know very well all the shitty things hes done and stands for#(him clearly explaining ukraine & russia but dodging any questions about israel & palestine is enough proof of this)#but things around the world are going to get much much worse if trump wins#'cause hes just going to do whatever the republican party tells him to#downright evil those people could be at times#im still trying to gather my thoughts around this#as an outsider i cant help but be worried#because rn the us is a big factor towards the west philippine sea tensions#and honestly if we lose toast. like we're actually going to get colonized for the 4TH time#so im scared of what'll happen if trump were to ever take office again#00#sorry for the long tags btw#i fully understand that biden is a horrible person. i was pulling my hair out with all of you#but there are nuisances here that i feel shouldnt be forgotten#trump unfortunately really came out with a stronger swing after that debate#so i feel like everyone's sort of forgetting that no matter how horrible everything is right now#his only promise is to make things worse#and not voting only adds to his perogative
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khanidae · 2 years ago
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Something a little different: concept sketches because I can't commit to drawing actual reference sheets for these guys. Humans are a struggle...
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bucketbueckers · 3 months ago
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SUPERSTAR
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pairing: paige bueckers x fem!reader
content: party!p being drunk and clingy and a maybe a little annoying, fluff without plot, the fuck ass net, language, the authors love language is physical touch and you can really tell
wc: 3.0k
synopsis: Paige Bueckers is a lightweight. Knowing that, you really shouldn’t have been all too surprised by the post-win afterparty.
notes: obligatory post natty fic?? i say yes! cooking one up for azzi too, idk when it will get posted but expect it soon. i dont care how much homework i have to procrastinate. side note, watching them play live was such a surreal experience, i'm still thinking about it and there are so many emotions that i can't put into words. they deserved this win so bad and i love my team so much 😩 i also wrote the second half of this while watching the men’s natty and all i have to say is im a misandrist and go huskies! as always i hope y'all enjoy 🫶
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You liked to think that you were an expert in a few niche categories.
The first is basketball. You grew up listening to the reverb of the bounce echoing in the gym. You learned how to dribble before you learned how to multiply. More often than not, you could usually tell when a shot was going into the net as soon as it left your hands. This is all to say you were pretty decent at basketball, although you’re sure that dropping a modest fourteen points in the national championship match and taking home the trophy makes you a little more than decent at ball.
Basketball aside, you weren’t lacking in the skills department. KK jokes that you and Carol share the title as the moms of the group since you’re so good at conflict resolution – although you prefer the term “trying to keep everyone alive.” More often than not, you’ll find Morgan standing at your door with a bag of groceries in hand, a wide smile on her lips in hopes that you’ll cook her dinner because, according to her, you just make the best carbonara she’s ever had. You’ve never been good at saying no to Morgan – she was yours and Aubrey’s shared freshman and after her surgery, you’ve made a point of spending as much time with her as possible because you can tell she’s not having an easy time with watching everyone play while she’s on the sidelines.
The one thing that you’re certain you’re an expert in is Paige Bueckers. You know her inside and out and on and off the court. The two of you started as rivals in high school, although your friendship truly blossomed during AAU competitions and Team USA where you had to play together. The distance and the competition kept the both of you from being anything more than friends, but when the both of you committed to UConn without the other knowing, Paige asked you out after the first summer practice and you were sure that you were a goner when she ran into a pole trying to spin a ball on her finger in an attempt to impress you. You grew up together, saw the best and the worst parts that came with dating an athlete, and stuck it through until the end – you even used your COVID eligibility to stay one extra year with her. Whether the universe wanted it or not, the two of you were going to win a natty together, damn it; and win it you did.
Which leads you to where you are now. You’re an expert in Paige Bueckers. There’s not a single thing you don’t know about her, just like there’s not a single thing she doesn’t know about you. That’s why you knew you were doomed when, during the group picture, she exclaimed “We get a parade! And we get to get drunk!” The thing about Paige is that she’s a D1 clinger when she’s plastered. She’s loud and annoyingly charming and honestly, you’re so in love with her that you’re not bothered by it. You’d hold her hair back while she vomited for the rest of your life as long as it meant the two of you were together for it. You just knew she’d be inconsolable and grumpy in the morning when she’s hungover, but after five years of blood, sweat, tears, surgery, rehab, and hardwork, your girlfriend has just won a national championship, so if she wants to get a little plastered and sing at the top of her lungs, then you have no real reason to do anything but ensure she gets back to your room safely.
A few minutes after the conclusion of the net cutting ceremony, you’re taking a few more photos with the trophy in your hands, your hat tucked neatly over your head when Paige comes over. The photographer leaves you two be as Paige reaches for the brim of your hat, turning it backwards to match hers. She’s got that soft, mischievous, slightly wide-eyed look on her face as she looks at you and you can’t help but melt at it. You can tell from her expression that it hasn’t fully set in that she’s won a natty, but you know it’ll hit her later.
“You want something or are you just here to annoy me?” you ask teasingly, handing the trophy off to Ice, who’s taking selfies. You reach out to adjust the net around Paige’s neck as she responds.
“What, I can’t come say hi to my girl?” she goads, the look on her face far too pleased. One of the other things you knew about Paige Bueckers after so many years together was that she loves attention. Specifically, from you, and you can tell that she loves how easily you handed off the trophy to focus fully on her.
“Hello,” you deadpan, which just makes her smirk.
“I ever tell you how proud I am of you?” she asks, shocking you slightly, and heat rises to your cheeks as you try to process the sudden praise.
You blink, rolling your eyes slightly, but the fond smile on your face gives you away. Your girlfriend curls her arm over your shoulders as she leads you through the crowd towards the tunnel. “C’mon, P. I should be saying that to you.”
“Nah,” she disagrees. “You brought us back in the second quarter with those threes.”
You shrug a shoulder, feigning nonchalance. “I did see Coach Staley crashing out when I was getting back on defense.” That makes Paige laugh a little, pulling you flush into her. “I’m serious, though. I’m proud of you, you know?” The two of you slow to a stop once you’re safely away from the cameras and the onlookers, so you turn towards her, resting your hands on her chest and threading your fingers through the net around her neck. “You just…you don’t know how special you are. As a person, a player, a teammate. You’ve been the heart and soul of this team, Paige. You’re here now. And you did it.” You give a teasing tug to the net, watching the affectionate smile spread across her lips, the tears pooling at her waterline again. “You deserve every bit of this.”
“We can be proud of each other,” she suggests. “But I’m definitely prouder than you.”
“You’re full of shit,” you say fondly, patting her cheek. “You’re lucky I love you.”
“I really am,” she agrees, leaning in to press a gentle kiss to your lips, one that makes you smile, and one that lasts not nearly long enough because KK walks by and gags dramatically. You raise a middle finger to her as she cackles. Paige laughs against you, too, wrapping her arms around your waist and sinking into your embrace instead. You rub her back, feeling her relax against you, and you kiss her head over the hat.
“I don’t suppose this means you’re gonna behave tonight?” you ask jokingly, already knowing that Party P will be in full effect.
She scoffs like you’ve just said something egregious. “I’m always on my best behavior,” she declares, and all you can truly do is smile and roll your eyes. You know.
The moment Paige finds the ping-pong table, you know it’s wraps.
She’s only a few shots in, but Paige Bueckers is a lightweight. You learned that much when you were both freshmen and you convinced one of the upperclassmen on the team to buy you drinks at Ted’s. Paige was laid out in the bathroom by 10pm and the two of you went home early. You spent the better part of the morning after tending to her hangover, but you’d told her to slow down, so everytime she whined that her head hurt you simply said, “I told you so” (although you felt bad enough for her that you rubbed her back for a few hours until the ache subsided).
Paige is playing one on one with Sarah – mind you, she’s still wearing that fuck ass net, but it’s a little endearing by this point. It reminds you of a little kid who can’t go anywhere without their emotional support blanket. Somehow, you’ve been roped in to being the referee, and as much as you tried to argue that ping-pong didn’t really need a referee, Paige was already inching into that clingy state of being drunk, so she’d just pulled you along and planted a wet, obnoxious kiss to your cheek as she steadied her paddle, unmistakable confidence in her expression.
At first, it’s tame. You watch the ball bounce back and forth between the two of them, still nursing a drink of your own. You alternate between saying Point, Sarah, or Point, Paige. Sarah, in typical Sarah fashion, hardly reacts, although Paige is either crashing out or celebrating every point like it’s another natty win. You weren’t too sure where she got the whole “nonchalant final boss” thing from, but it definitely was not true.
A few rounds later, a small crowd has formed, and she takes a breather to sidle up next to you. She wraps an arm around your waist and leans into you, taking a sip from your drink (much to your amusement), her expression is unbearably blissed out. Paige has a soft look on her face, her eyes a little hooded, but beyond the clear drunkenness, you can see a whole lot of love reflected in her eyes, an appreciation for tonight’s win. “You having fun, baby?” you ask her, a grin on your face.
She hums, tightening her grip, uncaring of the way Ice and KK are laughing at her. Paige pulls back suddenly, concern and slight guilt on her face. “Are you?” she echoes, like it would physically pain her if you weren’t enjoying your night. Knowing her, it probably would.
You laugh a little, rubbing your hand down her back, adjusting the cap on her head because it’s about to fall off from all of the bouncing around she’s done. “I am, don’t worry,” you say honestly.
“Good,” she murmurs, kissing you soundly. Without another word, she extracts herself from your grip and gears up for the next few rounds of ping pong with Sarah. She catches your eye and winks. “This one’s for you, baby,” she promises.
The serve immediately sails out of bounds. You try not to laugh too hard when you say, “Point, Sarah.”
“Shit,” Paige states.
“I think you’re supposed to keep the ball in bounds,” Sarah says helpfully.
“I got distracted,” Paige argues. “Didn’t count. 0-0.”
“It’s 1-0 for Sarah,” you call out, taking your job very seriously. You ignore the pout Paige sends your way, as if a pretty face would make you give up your refereeing integrity. It won’t.
Paige and Sarah take turns hitting the ping pong ball. You stay focused, although Paige’s expression endlessly amuses you. Her brows are furrowed, concentrated as she follows the ball, her movements strangely coordinated and precise for someone who’s a few shots in. Then, Ice announces she’s on live, which distracts Sarah, and Paige scores an easy point on her. Immediately, she launches into a celebration, chanting something that sounds like “Little Rah.” You and Sarah exchange a glance. A smile spreads across your face as you announce, “Foul on Paige. Unsportsmanlike conduct. Point, Sarah.”
Paige spins on her heel immediately. “Bruh, what?” she exclaims. “How was that unsportsmanlike? Since when does ping pong even have foul calls?”
“Careful, Lil Paigey,” Sarah says somberly, although her lips twitch like she’s trying to hold back a smile. “Arguing with the ref can get you a tech. Just ask DT.”
“Bruh,” Paige says again, looking at you pleadingly, like you can take away the egregious foul call you just made on your girlfriend. “Babe, come on. You know this is bull–” you raise a brow at her and she falters, “–crap. Bullcrap.”
You grin when you say, “2-0, Sarah.”
Paige stares at you like you’ve just betrayed her. You can tell she’s not actually upset, but she’s competitive more than anything. She takes a deep breath and reaches for her paddle again.
For the rest of your round, you do your best to throw Paige off her game, ranging from rolling up your sleeve as you pretend to inspect your conveniently flexed bicep or making increasingly more bullshit calls. You award Sarah a point for having a double double in the natty and subtract one point from Paige’s total because she had one turnover (you ignore her when she points out that Sarah had two turnovers, like that’s any of your business).
Finally, you call it at 15-9 in Sarah’s favor because you can tell the drinks are catching up to Paige. It’s already well past midnight and your flight back to Storrs tomorrow morning is early and you know Paige is going to have a rough morning. She pouts when you tell her that you’re taking her back to the room, but she knows it’s for the best so she makes her rounds, hugging everyone in the room and refuses to part with the net when KK reaches for it. Paige tangles your fingers together, not letting a single inch of space separate the two of you as she rambles on about how you and Sarah were most definitely cheating (you were).
When you make it back to the hotel room, you guide Paige into the bathroom, squeezing toothpaste onto her brush and pulling her hair tie out while she cleans her teeth. “I’mma be so sick tomorrow,” she complains, spitting, and scrubbing again as you reach for your toothbrush.
“That’s why you’re gonna take some medicine before you sleep,” you tell her. “And in the morning. And I’ll get you some coffee.”
“You’re the best,” she whispers, rinsing her mouth out. She stands behind you and wraps her arms around your waist, burying her head in your neck. Her breath tickles your skin as she tries to melt into you. She behaves like she’d die if she wasn’t under your skin, but you love your clingy girl just the same. “I’on know what I’d do without you. Like, for real. I wouldn’t be here without you, y’know that?”
“You’d still be here. Just a little less house trained, I think,” you promise her. Paige laughs against your skin, amused, as if she knew that’s what you would say. “But I’m glad you didn’t have to do it alone.” That makes her soften, her hands trailing under your shirt to brush against your skin. “You never have to do it alone as long as I’m here.”
“I know,” she says, kissing your neck tenderly. She squeezes you around your waist, then releases you, her gaze a little sleepy and hazy.
You offer her a grin, reaching for her hand. “Let’s get you to bed, superstar.” She nods and trails behind you. You flick on the lamp as she gets settled into bed. Paige tugs meaningfully at the net around her neck and you laugh, shaking her head. “You’ll choke and die in your sleep,” you deadpan. “I’d really like it if my girlfriend made it through the night.”
Paige juts out her bottom lip, grumbling under her breath as you pull the net off, draping it over the desk chair. You take the hat from her and set it on the nightstand, brushing your fingers through her hair as her eyes slip shut in relaxation. Before she can get too comfortable, you pass her a water bottle and the tylenol, which she takes without complaint.
Once she’s finally settled, you crawl into bed next to her. She wastes no time before wrapping you up, drawing you into her body and tucking her face into the crook of your neck and breathing soundly. You’d thought it would take some time before Paige would realize that she just won a natty, but now, it’s sinking in for you. You’re a national champion. So is your girlfriend. You’ve accomplished the very goal that you came back to UConn to seek out. You’re overcome with this heavy feeling of peace, gratitude, an overwhelming amount of love and admiration for the woman who put the team on her back when she needed to, who took a step back to let her team do their thing when needed to. Most of all, you’re overcome with a feeling of belonging, the feeling that you’re right where you’re supposed to be, wrapped in Paige’s arms like you’re more important to her than the trophy.
You think she’s fallen asleep until she murmurs, still slightly in awe, “We did it.” Her hand tightens around the fabric of your shirt, her voice exhausted and dripping with something that sounds like accomplishment.
Your fingers brush her knuckles, a smile of your own spreading across your face as you agree, “We did.”
You can feel the smile she presses against your skin, the subsequent kiss that follows. “I love you,” she murmurs. “Thank you for doing this with me.”
You don’t think you could be anywhere else. You lift her hand to your lips, kissing her knuckles, and she squeezes you one more time as you whisper, “I love you, too.”
When the two of you wake up that morning, you have her coffee ready and you make sure she takes her medicine to keep the headache away. And when she looks at you hopefully, holding up the net and the hat, you really don’t have it in you to protest.
You place the net around her neck again and you tuck the wisps of her hair under her hat, pressing your lips to hers, and she hugs you tightly with an emotion that feels a hell of a lot like relief. You know she’s relieved for a lot of reasons, but the top reason stems from a deep thankfulness that the both of you were able to win the national championship together, just as you’d spent years dreaming about.
Paige grins at you again, her expression adoring, and you know that what the two of you have is worth a whole lot more than the trophy you’ll be transporting to Storrs.
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mihii-i · 7 months ago
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hear me out..... mizu x fem reader, a oneshot, smut, they're already together, they are out in town as 'husband and wife' while they obtain information. The reader is a brat, Mizu literally fucks the ever living SHIT out of her. Teasing and mocking until the reader is blabbing out apologies that are barely even coherent. SHI ION KNOW WHEN STRAPS WERE MADE BUT IF YOU BUST THAT OUT I WOULD BE VERY GRATEFUL 🙏 and of course aftercare with lots of praise yk bc if ur gonna call me a slut at least kiss my face and call me ur pretty slut thank YEW
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Pairings: mizu x fem!reader
CW: nsfw, female reader, afab reader, wlw, let’s ignore the episode’s events and the shindo dojo shit because yay sex, freaky asf obv, but first angst bc im evil kitty, bratty ass reader, argument, mizu is lowkey at fault for it too tho, but reader is still a bitch, hardcore sesbian lex, little bit of soft stuff sprinkled because I cannot write mizu going full on rough and angy with her lover, it feels ooc she would be atleast a little sweet :(, strapon use/harigata, the strap legit came outta nowhere, horny shit god, i genuinely don’t know if this is classified as degradation but I hate degrading so hope not, crying, really fucking rough I don’t think I ever wrote something this insane, not proofread.
A/N: ugh this lowkey turned out bad cause my tea was bad but im loving the stream of mizu requests I am absolutely feral over this woman like I want to kiss and hug her in my arms while also wanting her to tear off my clothes it ain’t funny anymore I GENUINELY DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT WRITING EXTRA FREAKY MIZU BUT YER WELCOME. 🕯️
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Blisteringly cold sweeps of wind swayed in the air in a near painful freeze as crystals of snowflakes sunk upon touching the bare skin of your hand, your tense shoulder pushed up against Mizu’s cloaked one in an attempt to seek a sliver of warmth against the stinging cold. It was currently nearing the end of the nullifying freeze of winter, spring approaching in supposedly a few weeks from now in hopes of thawing out the erected statures blanketed in a gentle white.
Both you and Mizu navigated your way through the dips and trails of each snow heaped pathway in the city, remaining side by side as you two shouldered past the hordes of people pouring in through Kyoto’s streets. Throughout your support for her during the perilous tread to find the remaining men she sought to kill, you had assumed the title of her supposed ‘wife,’ while Mizu, still under the guise of a man, displayed herself as your husband.
Honestly, it was quite difficult to fathom why you were trailing behind this bloodthirsty woman, who would snap apart the bones of any living creature she came across for the sake of her wretched revenge—pulsing through every vein in her body, like an unrest that compelled her stubborn soul to live on. You always questioned yourself as you trudged by her side, eyes frequently staring down at your own feet buried in the thick layers of snow to ponder why your heart raced for a demon presumed to have nothing but hatred oozing from any noticeable crevice of light within her.
You nudged your fingers against her palm, reaching over as your knuckles came into contact with the calloused ridges of her own. Almost in a seemingly desperate sense, your fingertips danced along her skin occasionally as if you were pleading to hold her hand, only to end up cupping your hand around nothing as she pulled away with each gesture of yours seeking her affection. Mizu subtly nodded her head toward you, tilting her chin up to meet your gaze through the orange tint of her glasses.
“Not now. Focus on getting more information regarding Heiji Shindo.”
It was getting tiring. Annoying even.
Mizu initially proposed the idea of cloaking yourselves under the cover of a husband and wife to seek information, to which you agreed. Considering the two of you had been together for quite some time, you believed that it wouldn’t hurt to cover yourself with an impenetrable front. Surely your false marriage wouldn’t get questioned considering how touchy and affectionate you were with Mizu, proudly believing that such a plan would remain the same as usual.
Unfortunately for you, it might have to be time to come to terms with the fact that her revenge mattered more than you.
All of her recent actions reflected a strict focus to the goal she had set, refusing to indulge in even the smallest of pleasures with her own ‘wife.’ You constantly strode alongside her through Kyoto’s crowded infrastructure, shielded by the overarching shadow of her kasa shrouding her face as she opened her mouth to inquire of the Shindo Dojo’s whereabouts left and right.
You couldn’t bear to see her disappointed expression whenever she was ignored or directed incorrectly, one of the residents even leading her to a pleasure house, much to her discomfort. However, nothing served to dilate the pit in your stomach more than Mizu brushing you off, rolling her shoulder past you whenever she was fixated on gathering information about some piece of shit connected to one of the white men hiding in Japan.
You knew she didn’t hate you. In fact, Mizu loved you like you were the most precious thing she had ever set her sights on. Held you and whispered in your ears that you were one of the only people that ever mattered to her, and how grateful she was to have you, all while you were hemmed in her overflowing grasp of affection. Yet, you were unable to help the twinge of discomposure swirling in your chest at how…comfortable she felt neglecting you like this.
Of course in retaliation, you began to bite back at her lack of feeling towards you ever since you reached Kyoto under the disguise, growing increasingly despondent to the words that left her mouth. The annoyance alone she was able to inflict on you in these past few days was more than enough to fuel a minuscule revenge of your own. You’d always snap back toward Mizu, words tinged with a short of sharp edge to them, & contrasting the usual gentle demeanor you often displayed for her.
Looking around the cramped lanes, you remained to Mizu’s side as her own eyes traced every inch of the vicinity, briefly tilting her glasses along the bridge of her nose to capture a clear view as darkness clouded the sky in a shrouding night. Rays of moonlight kissing the rippling bodies of water engulfing the bridge off at the end, accompanied by the muted lamps provided a faint expansion of light within such a late portion of day, some starting to die out into a smoky grey one by one.
A disappointed huff fell from Mizu’s lips at the sight of nightfall descending upon the two of you, striking a halt in the investigation that had been dragged out for the whole day. Although you’d never admit it to her, you wanted to breathe out a prolonged sigh of relief once your info gathering induction had ceased for the day, unsure of how much longer you could rasp out another word about the black market merchant.
“(Name). We’re done for today, let me know if you find a decent place to rest.”
“Shouldn’t you look for one yourself? It’s the husband’s job to provide obviously.” You muttered, loud enough for Mizu to hear as you rolled your eyes.
“This is a false front and you know it. Stop being so stuck up and just listen to me.”
“Or what? Fucking hell Mizu, is it stuck up to ask for a little attention from my girlfriend?”
The sudden announcement of your relationship’s actual title cause her eyes to shoot wide open, cocking an eyebrow in evident disrelish toward your lack of compliance.
“You know full well that we’re in the middle of something important, and you’re simply acting like an attention seeking child!” Mizu hissed under her breath, attempting to keep her voice subtle to avert any attention away from the two of you.
“I don’t care. You just brush me off like I don’t exist when you’re clearly supposed to act like my husband.”
“Quit acting so fucking bratty and maybe I’ll give you what you want after we’re done.”
“Forget it, Mizu. Can’t believe I’m in love with a demon like you.”
You could almost hear Mizu’s breath hitch in her throat, swallowing back a lump as her lips remained parted in a frown. Her eyes roamed over you in disdain, brows knitting together as her eyelids lowered into a contorted expression of annoyance and hurt.
Regret clawed at your mind as you took in Mizu’s expression, clearly not displaying a particular fixation on hurt alone, but definitely harboring a chagrin of sorts. You felt your heart ache, realizing the words you had just uttered to your lover, unable to reflect upon what you just said to the woman you supposedly loved as she turned her back to you. Was she leaving you? Right here?
You jolted up at the sight of her head tilted over her shoulder to glance back at you, a cold expression still carved onto her already wounded gaze.
“Are you coming or not?”
Clearing your throat, you managed a soundless nod in response, the crunch of your footsteps being the only thing breaking the silence fostered between the two of you. A surge of anxiety crept up within you, the bitter taste flat against your tongue from the sheer feeling along worse than raw bile. What the hell was the matter with you? You claim you love her yet you struck a blow at one of her deepest insecurities? You couldn’t even begin to comprehend how disgusted you were with yourself right now.
Your footsteps abruptly ceased their movements as soon as you noticed Mizu’s own feet, stationary and sunken in the snow as she eyed the large wooden building with a sign hammered along a plank off to its right in a messy fashion. She immediately pivoted in the direction of the paper door upfront, pressing her fingers to the wall to push it aside and make way as it disappeared the further it was slid.
Despite following suit, you had completely blanked out, mind fogged with nothing but a storm of plaguing thoughts and raw hatred for your earlier words lurching at your chest. In this very moment, you couldn’t even begin to describe the guilt gnawing at the back of your head over and over. Similarly to a demon whispering in your ear endlessly to send you spiraling into madness.
No. You don’t get to put the blame on a demon. You demeaned your beloved as an onryō despite claiming to love her. The only real demon here was you.
A swift tap dragged along your shoulder shook you out of your jaundiced trance, Mizu’s unfeeling eyes stabbing through yours as she stared you down.
“Come on. There’s a room available.”
You cocked your head in confusion, not following the series of events that followed while your mind was wandering off. A sigh pushed past her tongue as she looked over at you, an unamused look painted all over her face.
“The room. We’re staying at an inn for the night. Then we continue investigating tomorrow.”
“Oh. Okay..”
That was all you could whisper out. Even speaking to her reminded you of that pained expression etched onto her face, draining the affection thay once presided in her blue eyes.
As soon as the door to your room slid open, such a minute detail presenting itself before you twisted like a dagger to your heart, feeling it drop to your stomach like a heavy stone. The two futons situated on the floor, one each big enough to fit both you and Mizu on it, yet still having two seperate beds against the floor far apart from each other. Was this some higher power’s way of telling you that your relationship was done for?
Not wanting to be held back by spacing out again, you begrudgingly set your foot down within the confines of the room, stepping into it as you were drawn to the futon on the far left. Kneeling beside it, a somber tiredness masked your face as you stared down at the fabric, with a few slight wrinkles adorning its stretched edges. The futon was quite spacious as it was splayed out on the tatami mat, oddly comfortable as well as you ran a hand along the surface.
You paused for a moment, slowly turning a head behind your shoulder until you caught sight of Mizu in your periphery, intently transfixed on her grasping at the kasa in her hands before setting it down beside the end of her own futon, her tinted glasses following alongside her cloak in a small pile of discarded clothes—if you could even call such accessories that. The weights strapped to her arms and legs also loosened to the floor with a clank, joining the discard pile as she took in a deep breath.
Mizu almost immediately plopped herself atop the futon without so much as looking over at you, back facing you as she lay on her side with the weight of her head pressured atop her arm.
“Blow out the candle for me, will you?”
Averting your gaze from her back, you sluggishly padded over to the candle, each step you took burning your heels as you felt like you were carrying the deadweight of your own body. A quick rush of wind was expelled from your lungs as you puckered your lips to blow out the candle, the flame flickering momentarily before vanishing into a thin trail of smoke wavering in the air and stinging your nostrils.
The strong miasma of smoke you were close to began to swirl within your throat within the darkness of the room, breath hitching as your head fogged up from discomfort. Perhaps you should refrain from inhaling smoke, only idiots come close enough to purposefully take in the scent of an air that could beset your lungs.
Only idiots hurt the person they love, much less if that person has been hurt enough in their past.
Returning to your futon, you also proceeded to lay on your side facing away from Mizu, fighting back the urge to want to see her gorgeous face. You closed your eyes, albeit a bit hesitantly as you screwed them shut, wallowing the quiet, wordless atmosphere fostered in the darkness once dimly illuminated by a tiny flame.
Or rather, former silence.
Your eyes almost immediately shot open at the abrupt chime of a distant shamisen echoing miles away in the dead of night. The smooth strums continued to ring in your ears in a soothing, yet harsh melody. Strange. They often didn’t hold any kabuki theater plays this late at night. You remained perplexed at the endless melodic chimes of the shamisen, yet oddly relaxed. Unable to comprehend the reason behind such a noise drifting through the streets so late, yet enjoying the comfort it enveloped you in.
Such a shame your comfort tore away from you, this night possibly being the last night you could even lay eyes upon your lover. You were sure you’d shattered everything you had with one simple comment alone. In this moment, you were no better than the man who had betrayed her in the past.
No.
No. You could never be apart from Mizu.
She was everything to you. You were nothing but determined to repair what you had supposedly shattered, using all you had to get the pieces to snap back together as with every ounce of internal strength you could muster if that’s what it took.
You sat up in one fluid motion, weakly dragging yourself over to Mizu’s futon while swallowing back the urge to just head back and sleep, ignoring the notion that this wouldn’t make it any better. Her body rose and fell with each breath she took in her slumber, eyes shut with a weary expression even as she slept. Without hesitation, you adjusted yourself to curl up directly behind her in a spooning position of sorts, arms encircling her waist almost immediately as you pressed your nose against her nape.
Mizu only shot you a quizzical glare, blinking groggily at the sight of your arms tightly fastened around her waist.
“Your bed is over there, you know.”
“These futons are enough for two people. Besides, I want to sleep next to my husband.” You muttered against her skin, breath fluttering against her nape in a warm embrace. Her breath caught in her throat at the mention of the false title the two of you had to act on, muscles tensing up in your grasp.
“What if I kill you? I am a demon after all.” She reiterated, a bitter edge cutting a pang of anguish directly into the existing wound of guilt embedded within you. “I don’t care..” you choked out in a shaky voice, dragging your lower lip between your teeth to suppress the tears stinging the corners of your eyes.
“I’m so sorry, Mizu.”
The entire room fell silent once more, your heart threatening to burst out of your chest as soon as you felt the warm embrace of Mizu’s arms tightly curled around you, squeezing you to her chest as her face was buried within your hair.
“I shouldn’t have brushed you off like that either.”
You shook your head against her chest, a few tears rolling down your cheeks as Mizu’s expression relaxed, softening as she held you close to herself. Both of you remained in eachother’s embrace for a bit, relishing in the warmth of your wholehearted adoration. Despite the ridges that walled between you two at times, you would always come back to her. You know full well that she meant everything to you, while she reciprocated the same. She only hushed any more apologies spilling profusely from you, holding you tighter.
“Please..Mizu..let me do anything to make it up to you. Anything at all.”
You’ll never forget the sudden flare of hunger roused in her pupils as those words vibrated in her ears, bare hands outlining your body up to dig into your shoulders. Her voice came out in a quiet hum as she pursed her lips together, shaky hands fighting the ravenous desire to yank down the shoulders of your kimono right then and there.
“Anything?”
It didn't take long for you to catch onto her implication, your breath fanning in a series of shallow exhales as your torso pressed to hers with an urgent desire aflame within every drop of blood, every rushing fiber within your body screaming her name. Tilting your head up, you only rasped out a breathless plea as your lips ghosted over Mizu's, her heart pounding furiously against her chest to which you could quite literally feel from the clothed chest to chest proximity.
A palpable heat crept into the air as it fogged the atmosphere between you two, the tension fostered thick with a lustful infatuation hinted with the beauty of love itself. You couldn’t even pretend to hold yourself back, practically lunging yourself at Mizu as your lips smashed against her own, locking yourself in a passionate grasp accompanied by her hands wandering your body shamelessly as if she wanted to tear everything off without regard.
You gasped against her lips in response to her tightened hands bunching up fistfuls of your kimono silk, bundled up within her grasp as her tongue dragged along your lower lip, completely lost in the intense craving to devour you whole. Leaning back, you didn’t resist her hands tracing the darkened silhouette of your figure to slide down the shoulders of your clothing, urging her to undress you completely as you writhed in the unbearable heat your clothes trapped you in.
It didn’t take long for you to lay before her, flat against your back fully bare while your eyes lingered over Mizu’s now unclothed form as well, taking in every part of her nude body as you felt your face burn a deep crimson from the sheer beauty of the sight before your eyes. You couldn’t help but lose yourself in those gorgeous blue eyes, now heavy lidded and misted over with a covetous desire boring into your own.
Her lips found their way across your skin, kissing down your collarbone and tracing to your lower abdomen, hands snaked below your thighs as her gaze fixed on yours from below. You heard the subtle echo of your heartbeat thudding in the clearing as Mizu halted her movements for a second, seemingly having a thought interrupt her sensual touches along your body.
“Love..? Is something-“
“Hold on. I have something.” She interjected, reaching down into the discarded pile of clothing to scramble for a small—or rather large, rectangular box, fitted perfectly into her grasp as she lifted open the lid carefully. Breath hitching at the sight, your eyes flickered over to the phallic object firmly curled between her fingers, the length a nasty contrast to her earlier gentle kisses. You blinked in surprise at the fact that Mizu just- had a harigata on her, opening your mouth yet quickly snapping it shut as you didn’t exactly wanna question why she was carrying it around so casually.
You only responded to the sight with your heart throbbing in rapid beats, along in tandem with feeling a different kind of tingling fluttering between your thighs as you squeezed them shut upon seeing Mizu fasten the object around her waist.
“Fucking hell- you like that don’t you? You enjoy getting filled by a demon?”
Mizu hissed through her grit teeth as her hands squeezed at the flesh of your wrists, keeping them held down against the futon as her hips slammed forward into you to meet her skin against your with every fervent thrust. Your mouth hung open as your body jerked up everytime she bottomed out inside you, tear streaks coating your cheeks like a fashionable look to getting your insides wrecked by your lover.
Every wash of pleasure surged through your body as your walls accommodated to stretch out in response to the girth of her cock, clenching the velvety insides of your cunt to trap her inside, only to be met with her sliding the harigata out to drive back into you once more with a monstrous force. Eyes rolling back in bliss, you dragged your lower lip between your teeth in response to the rush of your blood igniting your body on fire, nails digging into Mizu’s back in response to the drag of her cock along your insides.
It was difficult to handle her rough movements ridging within the vice of your pussy, the tip of her faux cock circling that one spot inside you to drive you utterly insane. You were mad with lust as you clawed at Mizu for more whenever she paused, rolling your hips up with an aching need as a sinful ring of your slick, moist against the toy bounced off the walls of the room, only driving your girlfriend to drill you into the futon with a heightened arousal clouding her eyes.
Strings of incoherent cries and moans fell from your lips in a series of pathetic whimpers, wanton pants heaving your chest up and down as her cock lodged within you comfortably. Mizu grinded skin to skin with heightened desperation, using her strength to hold you down and reach that one spot that made you sob in ecstasy as she wrung you dry.
Her muscles tightened as her thrusts grew more rapid, face contorting in pleasure further on as if she was lost in it. She stared down at you as she fucked your into the futon harshly, grip tightening around your wrists and pushing you further without regard for anything but making you squirt all over the harigata. Strangely enough, her eyes shone with that same glint she harbored whenever she lusted for blood, brows furrowing as her pupils seemed transcendent and full hate, yet loving and burrowed in your pleasure.
“Say that you love it. Or are you so fucked out you can’t even let out a pathetic whimper?”
She gasped out a breathy laugh in response to your sobs, only jamming her hips further into you in a seemingly enraged manner.
“Oh? You can’t even talk? Such a shame. Here I thought you had a problem with demon bastards like me?”
She leaned her face in nose length with yours, meeting eye to eye with you as she continued rolling her hips harshly against yours.
“Say it. Say you’re sorry.”
Her girthy cock sunk into you at the command, only earning a cry ripped from your lips while you stared at the perverse sight of the dildo sheathing in and out of you sloppily, her hand moving to grasp your cheeks together and elicit a sharp cry. Mizu’s relentless thrusts spun your mind in a haze of euphoria, making you sputter out an apology despite being fucked into the mattress roughly without stopping for even a split second.
“I’m- m- mmh-!”
She rolled her eyes at the pitiful attempt, squeezing your face to look at her while she plowed into you with each powerful thrust nearly knocking the wind out of you.
“M’sorry! I’m sorry Mizu! I won’t ever- ah-! I won’t ever say that again please!”
You whined out, a smile crossing the woman’s features as she touched her forehead to yours, her thrusts keeping the same pace yet seeming far more controlled and gentle now. Mizu sighed against the crook of your neck, delicately peppering your skin to juxtapose her previously harsh and fervent movements against your poor, abused cunt. Her thumb darted down to circle your already swollen clit, hesitating momentarily before massaging the puffy bundle of nerves along with the gentle flurry of kisses along your collarbone.
It didn’t take long before Mizu’s hips plunged deep within you, her cock making one final movement before your juices ran down the dildo to dampen the futon, staining it in a darker color pooled between your trembling thighs. Unfasting the strap, she carefully withdrew herself from your pussy, setting aside the harigata as she pressed up to your limp body in an affectionate hold. Arms encompassing your heaving body, pressing kisses to the shell of your ear in acknowledgment that you did in fact do well for her, Mizu showered you with every action she could to possibly make you feel loved.
After your breathing subsided, Mizu thoughtfully rested her chin against your shoulder, humming to herself in satisfaction as you let out a shaky exhale.
“(Name)?”
“Mhm..?”
“I know we’re just putting on the whole husband and wife thing as an act but when we can…when I kill the remaining three..”
You tilted your head up, being met with a gentle kiss encompassing your body in a scorching flare of passion as she hemmed her arms around you tightly, like a promise to never let go.
“Marry me. Be my wife when everything is over. We can live away from everything. I’ll give you whatever you need- no..whatever you want.”
You were too spent to respond.
So with a smile, you manged a tender nod.
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A/N: okay yall may like this but ima be fully honest…
I FUCKING HATE HOW THIS TURNED OUT SO MUCH ITS SO BAD.
IT DOESNT GIVE THE SAME VIBE AS MY USUAL MIZU FICS WHY DID I WRITE IT SO BAD FORGIVE ME
anyway my next mizu fic will actually be good trust sorry for making this ass anon 💔
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housepartyprotocol · 7 months ago
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Farmhand
Oscar Piastri x Clarkson's Farmer!Reader
summary: Oscar has his visit to the Clarkson Farm and meets a certain animal-centred farm hand (a/n: this is a tiny touch self indulgent as i am obsessed with Clarkson's farm 24/7)
Masterlist / TipJar
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ynusername Season 4 of Clarkson Farm filming underway. Ready to have cameras in my face while I muck out and feed baby animals for the next few months.
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user horse queen
lisahogan come join me in the farm shop
ynusername thats aruguably more camera time no thank you
user came for Jeremy Clarkson, stayed for YN
user her content is amazing
user looking forward to clarkson farm season 4!
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oscarpiastri I don't think I will be farming again anytime soon
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user did you see the video of him struggling to reverse the tractor?
user I saw Kaleb and a girl die of laughter in the background user whos the girl? user she works on the farm, she is really funny in the show
mclaren not such a good driver ?
oscarpiastri a tractor is not an f1 car
kalebcooper had a great time mate! you are more then welcome to try again
oscarpiastri I dont feel like humilating myself infront of people again user I really hope it makes the show
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ynusername week of my furry babies
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user oml so cute!
user what does she do on the farm
user she’s a dog trainer, specifically hunting dogs. she also raises and trains horses user she’s diddly squats animal whisperer
lisahogan I love heart cow, shes my baby
ynusername your next farm baby, one of many!
user did you see her making fun of oscar, the f1 driver?
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clarksonsfarm Filming life back on the farm ready for the next series! Somehow health and safety signed off on a team of camera crew joining farm hand YN on a hack...
Stick around to see how it went
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user I need this footage now
user I cannot wait for this season, I bet there will be more YN screen time
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ynusername Twas a great time, no accidents, no issues with birds, perfect...
user OMG tell us what happened ynusername ;) kalebcooper Happy I was not there ynusername It was fun!
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oscarpiastri Back in my type of vehicle. I can drive this.
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user clarkson farm reference!
user P3 Qualifying!
ynusername Good luck
liked by oscarpiastri user OMG Its her! user who? user Watch Clarksons's farm on amazon user Jeremy clarkson..? user YUP
landonorris still so jealous you got to drive a tractor
landonorris I asked, no one will let me oscarpiastri aww poor you user i cannot imagine lando driving a tractor mclaren you are too much of a liability for us to let you do that landonorris But you LET OSCAR?! user hes 1 sec away from downloading a tractor simulator
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ynusername Order of preference, horses>dogs>racecars>cows>sheep>people
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user why are people so low...
ynusername because animals are less likely to be sassier than me, which is how i like it user thats honestly so real
lisahogan that order is respectable, but race cars?
ynusername your parter is JEREMY CLARKSON? lisahogan true
user No that reaction to F1 is my resting face while watching
oscarpiastri dogs win
ynusername you need to meet more horses user CROSSOVER?!?!
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oscarpiastri Got told I needed to meet more horses by a dog trainer
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user is he just living at clarksons farm
user his second home
ynusername I train, raise, and breed horses too silly
oscarpiastri but you are still a dog trainer ynusername hunting dogs user YN calling Oscar 'silly' is the highlight of my life
user is that his girlfriend
user no she works on the farm he is visiting, Jeremy Clarkson's farm user he could be visiting her at his farm because he is dating her user he definitely likes her though
mclaren horses on the track next?
user admin is a genius user barrel racing, jumping user put all f1 drivers on ponies, and get them to race
landonorris you are a walking insurance risk. Tractors, horses, yet i can do nothing @ McLaren play fair
mclaren we'll get you a Shetland pony landonorris'll take it
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mclaren Race day and entertaining a special guest, happy to get them out of farming gear
@ ynusername
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user God oscars hands are hot
ynusername whats wrong with my farm gear
user yn hurting at admins comments mclaren farm clothes are stil nice, but our merch is better ynusername thank you for it all !!
user Clarkson farm crossover to the next level
user Oscar is going to end up living on a farm no way is YN giving up her horses and dogs
user who said anything about them living together? are they even dating? user sure looks like it
oscarpiastri Definitely sticking with cars over horses
ynusername I'll try again and again landonorris can I? ynusername Sorry I'm not allowed to let you landonorris @ mclaren this is unfair!!
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ynusername Had to absolute pleasure of riding the first horse I bred, raised, and sold. Love you peanut butter xx FT my baby and my pupper
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user shes taken, damn
user I love that fact the first chance she had to name a horse she called it peanut butter
ynusername he looks just like it !! user she must have done a good job, that's a fancy ass stable
user I bet thats Oscar piastri
user oh yeah 1000%
oscarpiastri such beautiful animals
ynusername my children oscarpiastri such beautiful children ynusername yay user he is down bad
lisahogan we missed you these two weeks, but happy you had a good time
lisahogan give oscar our love user DID SHE JUST
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oscarpiastri You can take my love out of the farm but you can't take the farm out of my love
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user CONFIRMATION HES TAKEN
user she is stunning
user ITS YN, omg she got so lucky
user imagine if Oscar did not go to the farm
user faTEE!!
ynusername I am never leaving the farm
oscarpiastri done. ynusername done what... oscarpiastri sold my apartment in Monaco. ynusername I what. Huh, we should talk about this no oscarpiastri I'll learn to stand the farm smell for you ynusername ITS NOT A BAD SMELL
mclaren Cuties
user mother hen mclaren user mastermind
landonorris he can date the farm girl and driver tractors and ride horses and I can't get on a horse?
mclaren one time pass landonorris @ ynusername LETS GO HORSERIDING ynusername YESSS user this feels like an odd interaction oscarpiastri their entire relationship is an odd interation
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domoriu · 9 months ago
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Pookie bear if you ever get the time can you recommend your favorite fics that you’ve read🙏🏿
oh i love this question… also just a warning its 95% haechan and mark lee fics 😭 i can do another part to this too if yall want 🤫 maybe with like bnd fics ? or enhypen or something idk just lmk
kiwis fic recs !!
pussy fiend - haechan // u guys dont even understand how much i love this fic. its been 2 and a half years and im still here. like i re read it every other month. i remember exactly where i was when i read it too. like oh my god its so fucking good 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 domjaehyun you will always be famous to me please dont ever die
real talk - mark // wow. 5 stars no notes. yes.
risk it all - haechan // mhmmm 😋😋
kiss you right now - mark // also super good… like wowie….
sure thing - haechan // yeah… yeah. 😭
my words, your thoughts - haechan // so beautifully written omg… like i honestly forgot there would even be smut at the end cuz i was so invested in the story its just so good. i re read it recently and just yeah.
first love - soobin // SUCH A GOOD SERIES i loved reading this so much when it came out i still re read it sometimes… tooooooo good
mine too - haechan ft. jaehyun // really good… recently re read it and its still so good…
untitled - markhyuck // my two ults. yes. so good. fantastic give me 14 of them right now.
the boy - sunwoo // ONE OF MY FAVORITES. LITERALLY SO GOOD AND JUST UGH. LIKE RHE BUILDUP TO THEM GETTING TOGETHER. YES.
cream of the crop - changkyun // i dont usually read for monsta x but this fic has had me in a chokehold for YEARS it still does like i dont play about this fic oh my god… please
gelato - mark // the yearning… yes… like oh yeah. just yeah.
i definitely have a lot more…. literally just scroll through @haechanfart where i reblog a lot of my favorites (its mainly haechan and mark lee but theres like 4 enhypen fics in there from like 2022 if you scroll down enough 😭)
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belli5 · 29 days ago
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⌗ . ᵎᵎ ⸝⸝ Current boyfriend .ᐟ ೀMC⁷¹
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doing the current boyfriend prank on Mack, because you know how tiny bit sensitive he gets when it comes to you.
˚₊· ᥫ᭡ Macklin Celebrini x fem!reader ➜ Fluff. Note: Graduating tomorrow and dont know how to feel.. masterlist
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You weren’t even trying to be mean. Really, you weren’t.
It all started that morning, laying in bed while Macklin was still passed out, hair messy, mouth slightly open, one arm sprawled across your stomach.
You’d been scrolling through tiktok aimlessly, sipping on iced coffee and trying to wake up, when you came across a video that had you nearly snorting it out your nose.
A girl was filming a video with her boyfriend, and mid intro, she casually said “I’m here with my current boyfriend,” like it was no big deal. To be honest, this was not your first time seeing this trend, so why not?
You grinned. It was dumb. But it was also, hilarious.
And now you couldn’t stop thinking about how your boyfriend might react.
Macklin was a softie, and just tiny bit sensitive when it came to you.
You weren’t planning on torturing him or anything—you just wanted to see his pout. Maybe the little frown he got when he was annoyed but too polite to say so. You’d kiss it away right after, of course.
So that afternoon, while he was out grabbing smoothies for you both, you set up your phone on the kitchen counter with the front camera flipped and a couple takeout boxes spread out like a casual mukbang setup.
Which Mack was already familiar with your spontaneous “we’re filming this” energy, so he wouldn’t suspect anything.
When he came home, wearing a grey hoodie and sweatpants that made him look unfairly good, he placed the smoothie cups down and gave you a sleepy smile.
“I got your strawberry one,” he said, leaning over to kiss your cheek. “They were out of boba though.”
“Still love you,” you replied with a smirk. “Wanna do a little mukbang real quick? Figured we’d do it and then chill after.”
He blinked. “Like a TikTok thing?”
“Yeah.”
He shrugged. “Sure. Do I look okay?”
You bit back a grin. He always looked good.
“You look hot, babe.”
That made his cheeks go pink. He tugged the hoodie sleeve over his hand like he always did when he flustered. “Shut up.”
You got the phone set up. Mack sat down beside you, opening a box of fries, and waited. He even sipped his smoothie in sync with your breath like he’d done this a hundred times, because honestly he had.
“Okay,” you started, smiling sweetly at the camera. “Hi guys! Today, I’m doing a little mukbang with someone special..”
Mack smiled beside you, chewing. You continued. “I’m here with my current boyfriend,” you turned and pointed to him.
The chewing stopped. Mack blinked and then blinked again. “..what?”
You bit your lip, trying not to laugh.
“What’d you just say?”
“What did I say?” You feigned innocence.
His face crumpled immediately into confusion, and then offense. “Current?” He repeated, his brows furrowed and mouth twitching in a way that was both endearing and heart wrenching. “Why would you say current?”
You shrugged, still trying not to smile. “I mean… I didn’t lie.”
He dropped the fry he was holding. “That makes it sound like there’s gonna be, like… a next boyfriend.”
“Nooooo,” you said, dragging it out teasingly.
He looked from you to the camera and then back, his jaw tightening like he knew you were probably messing with him, but couldn’t risk being wrong.
“So what am I?” he asked, voice soft now. “A temp?”
“Mack,” you laughed, finally letting yourself smile, “you’re so dramatic.”
“I’m not dramatic,” he insisted, definitely being dramatic. “You just called me your current boyfriend. That implies there’s, like, a roster.”
“Not a roster,” you said, nudging his arm. “Just, like, a… timeline.”
He squinted at you. “You’re being weird.”
You lost it. Laughed out loud, leaning into him with your head against his shoulder. “I’m sorry. I saw this TikTok earlier where girls were pranking their boyfriends by calling them ‘current boyfriend’ and I had to try it. Your face was exactly what I hoped it’d be.”
Macklin groaned, face dropping to his hands as he slumped forward in betrayal. “You’re evil.”
You wrapped both arms around his middle, giggling into his hoodie. “But I’m your evil.”
He turned his head toward your phone, half heartedly glaring at it. “Delete that.”
“No.”
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moonlit-imagines · 1 year ago
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Headcanons for being Tony Stark’s child
Tony Stark x child!reader
warnings: alcohol ment,
a/n: so i just really think that the concept of tony having the party kid as opposed to nerdy avenger kid would be a really cool idea to explore teehee. most of this does actually take place pre-avengers tho!!
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you were quite the exhausting kid
“is this really how it felt to raise me?” -tony
many of nights he’d find your bed empty, you’d snuck out to go have your fun as teenagers do
“yeah, boss, i imagine it was” -happy
you always showed back up in one piece (like him) and besides a little slap on the wrist you didn’t get much discipline
actually, it usually went like:
“so, where did you go off to last night?” -tony
“a party” -you
“really? didn’t want to loop me in before you snuck out…again?”
“last time i told you about a party you showed up!”
“uh—yeah, but it’s not like i went all dad on you and dragged you away or anything”
“yeah, you joined the party and offered to buy teenagers more booze”
“hey, they all loved you after that! and they couldn’t get enough of my classic dance moves” -tony, jokingly doing the sprinkler with one arm “but seriously, let me know next time”
“we’ll see about that” -you
^the above conversion went about the same every time
sometimes for entertainment purposes you’d try a little harder, throw a few pillows under the covers to make it look like you were still home to put a smile on tony’s face
“aw, y/n reminds me so much of me” -tony
tony was still partying at this point so you’d flip the script on him from time to time
“you were out late” -you
“what are you, a cop? leave me alone. actually, can you get me some aspirin and water?” -tony
“sure, one or two” -you
“make it three” -tony
he would nurse your occasional hangovers (what a great dad!)
okay, he didn’t always know when you were gone. he was busy a lot of the time with his own business and extracurriculars so you guys did just kinda do your own thing for certain stretches of time
honestly you could be a bit of a klepto in the best of ways
but only to tony and only for fun
“oh, great, where’s my car?” -tony
“which one?” -pepper
“the black one!” -tony
“be more specific” -pepper
“the only one missing from my garage!” -tony
“yeah, i know, just wanted to give you some more time to think about it” -pepper
“i changed the code on the lockbox like, five times this week. did they hotwire it?” -tony
“we are talking about your kid, right? pretty sure they just hacked it” -pepper
“i am…so proud” -tony
you MAY have gotten a few close calls with authorities, but nothing tony couldn’t handle
and up until tony’s accident, the phrase “you’re going to give me a heart attack” was silly and endearing
“you might actually give me a heart attack, y/n, give a guy some warning or just say please for god’s sake” -tony, now comes with an arc reactor in his chest
“sorry” -you
“what—huh—didn’t hear ya, wanna say that a little louder?” -tony, very sarcastically
i tell ya when he got that armor u couldn’t tell if u were gonna flip out at him or invite him to a party
or steal it for…you didn’t even know what
but tony was 3 steps ahead of you when all this came to be
and you weren’t very interested in weapons, still just parties and dumb fun for you
“dad, i dont wanna be a nerd, will you just let me go out?” -you
“come on! just help me in the lab a few hours, what’s it gonna hurt?” -tony
“my social status” -you
“might i remind you you’re a stark? i think you’ll live if you miss one party” -tony
“you’d be surprised” -you
“hey, i almost died! give your old man a break” -tony
once tony got involved with SHIELD and the avengers he got even busier really
and in came the parenting advice from fury, clint, nat, steve
“hey, i don’t see you raising a teenager, back off” -tony
*clint side eye*
steve once tried to give you a good talking to, but you reminded him a great bit of your father with your stubbornness
“you done? i dont think you should be giving out any parenting tips fresh off the ice” -you
tony was kind of proud of you for sticking to your guns
especially around such powerful people
but you had a knack for that and could do it to practically anyone
mostly because you felt like an invincible teenager since you were raised by tony, who also thought himself an invincible teenager at one point
u tried to tone down giving tony grief when he started having panic attacks
since u accidentally caused a few by pushing boundaries and staying out for several nights in a row
cuz as tony gained more enemies, he thought you’d be in more danger
which was true
“happy, you’re y/n’s personal bodyguard” -tony
“no!” -you
“uh, cool? any fun parties planned tonight? i’ll be the designated driver. god knows i’ve been tony’s too many times” -happy
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azulpitlane · 2 months ago
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epilogue l fc43
epilogue for we can't be friends💘: in which you are coparenting with franco while he's still trying everything to prove his love for you
part one, part two
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francolapinto amazing, gorgeous, perfect😍 oh and lucia is there too
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user no caption or anything like okay!
user idk why this being posted with no context is sending me
user OMG A Y/N SIGHTING
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alexpriv mine
francolapinto 😡
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yourusername ?
francolapinto you just looked beautiful here
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alexpriv WE MUST STAY FOCUSED BROTHERS WE MUST STAY FOCUSED
alexpriv REMEMBER ALL THE EVIL CRIMES HE COMMITTED
yourusername 😭😭😭
yourusername am i stupid to think hes actually sorry?
alexpriv you’re not stupid. you just have a really really really soft heart. especially for him🤢
yourusername i hate it here
alexpriv ill be honest and give him SOME credit (even though its physically hurting me) but i do think hes sorry too. that doesnt mean you have to forgive if you dont want to though
yourusername yeah i told him i cant promise anything just yet
alexpriv good. hes gotta earn it
yourusername then he proceeded to invite me to the abu dhabi gp😭
alexpriv um what
yourusername he said i deserved a small break and offered to fly me out, have someone watch lucia, and just let me relax. like we used to.
alexpriv ugh. thats actually really thoughtful. i hate thats hes being a decent human rn
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atlabeth · 1 year ago
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geyser
series masterlist
pairing: luke castellan x daughter of poseidon!reader
summary: percy learns about the first girl luke castellan ever loved.
a/n: this is a lil sad. sorry about that. but i really like it and it came out of nowhere in like 2 days so i hope you enjoy despite the sadness. title from the mitski song
wc: 6.5k
warning(s): major character death; not shown but hangs over the whole fic. angst made angstier by fluffy flashbacks. mostly told through percy’s pov but includes luke, annabeth, and reader povs
also if you saw this before on another account DONT WORRY... that account was also me. im just doing some stuff behind the scenes right now as i figure stuff out lol i promise no plagiarism is going on
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Percy thought that his head might explode. 
He didn’t know how he was still walking, honestly. His mom died, he killed a— no, the— Minotaur, all the Greek myths were real and his dad was one of them, and now he had to deal with that freak accident with Clarisse and the toilets. 
At least he would be ready next time she tried to beat him up. Percy had been the new kid enough to know there would be a next time.
All he could do was stare at the Minotaur horn in his hands, the only sign that what happened outside the border was real. The horn in his hands and the hole in his heart. 
Percy swallowed the lump in his throat. He’d been thrown into the deep end, and the only thing on his mind was when he would start to drown. 
“Hey.” Percy looked up to see the counselor he’d met earlier with Annabeth—Luke. He tossed a ziploc bag at him and he caught it, taking a moment to look at what was in it. 
“I stole you some toiletries from the camp store,” he explained. “Thought it might make you feel more at home.” 
“…Thanks.” He didn’t know if Luke was joking, but the damage had already been done. And it was the nicest thing someone had done for him so far. He set it down next to his Minotaur shoebox. “Is this the best that it gets?” 
Luke’s lips quirked up in a slight smile. “For now. We’re a little crowded, if you couldn’t tell.” 
“Just a little bit.” Percy stood up from his sleeping bag and worked out the knot in his shoulder. “Where’s your bed? Assuming you have one.” 
“I couldn’t wrangle all these cats without some back support,” he said, and he pointed to a bed in the corner. It was the only one on its own without a bunk, and he had a fair amount of decorations. Counselor privileges, he figured. Percy walked over, Luke trailing behind him. 
“Nice place,” he said. Percy picked up the Yankee’s cap on his bedside table and nodded as he looked back at him. “Nice taste.” 
“It’s for Annabeth,” Luke said. “She wanted us to match.” 
Percy nodded again in approval. “Good taste for both of you.”
Luke had various other things around — an alarm clock knocked over next to the baseball cap, a huskie sticker on the wall half-scraped off, a poster for an album he didn’t recognize. 
But the thing that caught his eye was a polaroid hanging on the wall, surrounded by a smattering of others varying in size. 
The first one had to be an old picture—Luke didn’t have his scar, and the biggest smile stretched across his face. He had a girl close with an arm slung around her waist, and she might’ve been smiling even more than Luke. A bright energy emanated around her, something that must have transferred through the picture, because Percy found himself feeling a little better just looking at her. He wondered if she was a camper. 
His eyes flicked to the next picture, which was another one of Luke and that girl. They were both laughing as she tried to put a blue hat on Luke’s head, and he protested with a hand on her wrist. They were in the forefront of a baseball game, Percy noticed.
There were other pictures, too—Luke, a girl dressed all punk, and what looked like a young version of Annabeth, most notably—but a majority of them were either Luke and that girl, or the girl all on her own. In every single one, she beamed brighter than the sun. 
Percy pointed at the picture of Luke and the girl at the baseball game, his curiosity getting the better of him. “Who’s that?”
That seemed to catch Luke off-guard, his lips parting for a moment as if he wanted to say something. It barely took him any time to get back on track, but Percy found himself frowning. 
“That’s…” Luke cleared his throat, wet his lips, shook his head. “A friend. A very good friend.”
“Does she go here?” Percy asked. 
“She did.” 
He frowned. “Where is she, then?” 
“Percy—” Luke’s voice was strained, but he didn’t really notice as he went on. 
“I didn’t see her around,” he continued, “and you look pretty close.” 
Luke blinked a couple times, and Percy swore he could see the telltale glimmer of tears starting in his eyes. A muscle worked in his jaw, and suddenly Percy was worried that he’d said something horribly wrong. He had a talent for that, it seemed. 
Fortunately, he was saved by the bell—conch shell?—and something like relief flooded through Luke’s expression. Tension still coiled in his body. 
“Come on,” he said, that camp counselor smile coming back as he put his hand on Percy’s shoulder and guided him away from the enclave. “That means dinner’s about to start.”
Percy’s frown deepened as curiosity won out again. “Was she your—”
“You don’t wanna be late,” Luke continued, ignoring his attempt. “I assume you’re pretty hungry after two days spent out?”
Well, that only made him want to push harder. But Percy figured he wouldn’t get anything out of him—especially not now. 
“…Yeah,” Percy said. “Starving.”
An odd look flickered across his face, but again, it only lasted for a second before he was back to normal. He cupped his hands around his mouth and yelled, “Eleven! Fall in!” 
Percy was at the back of the line by virtue of him being the new kid, and he found himself looking back at that picture of Luke and the girl. He didn’t know why, but something drew him to her. Before Percy could think about it more, the line was moving and his growling stomach drew his attention away. 
He would have plenty of time to ask Luke about it later. 
Or rather, ask him and piss off the only person who’d tried to be his friend so far. 
…Gods. 
Maybe he was going to drown sooner than he thought. 
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“Luke—” 
“No!” 
“Luke, please!” 
“Annabeth will kill me if she knows—” 
“She won’t know!” 
“Alright, alright— stay still, you two!” 
Your mother laughed from behind the camera as you and Luke fought with each other, you trying your damnedest to get your Red Sox cap on his head as he tried his damnedest to stop you. The frantic laughter on both sides made it a little difficult for either of you to succeed in your quest, but eventually, you got the rock up the hill and the hat on his head. 
“Take the picture, Mom!” you exclaimed, pulling Luke even closer by his arms so he couldn’t get it off. “I need the proof!” 
“I knew this was a bad idea,” Luke groaned, staring at the camera as you wrapped your arm around his side and leaned into him. He could already imagine your victorious smile, brighter than the sun beating down on them in the stadium, and just the thought of it made one of his own flit across his lips. 
“Oh, shut up, Castellan,” you said. “You chose to come to this game. Everyone’s gonna know you’re a Red Sox fan now.”
“You said you wouldn’t tell her!” Luke defended, wrenching his arms free of your control to take the hat off his head. “I don’t even care about baseball!” 
“You care so much about it,” you said cloyingly, “and you’re ride or die for the Boston Red Sox.” 
“If you say a single word—” 
“Okay, kids!” Your mother pointed at the seats next to her. “The game’s about to start—you can keep arguing, but only if you sit down so I can see.” 
“Sorry, Mom.” You grinned at her as you pulled Luke over to your seats—they were a step up from nosebleeds, but they were the ones closest to the balcony so you could at least peer over the railing down to the diamond.
“It’s alright, sweetheart.” She glanced at Luke with a smile, and he could really see where you got it from. “We’ve gotta make him a fan somehow.” 
“I guess I can live with the brand.” Luke set the cap back on your head once you were seated, purposefully pulling the brim a little over your eyes, and he smiled at you. “Even though it looks better on you, anyways.” 
“You just don’t have what it takes to be a Red Sox fan in the heart of Yank territory,” you mused, pushing the hat back up so you could see. “It’s fine.” 
Luke rolled his eyes, but he could hardly bite back his smile. 
“I am glad you came, though,” you said, glancing back at him. “I’m glad you came with me in the first place. This is gonna be the best semester.”
“Thanks for having me,” Luke said. “It’s… it’s been a while since I’ve left camp.” 
“Fingers crossed for no monster attacks, eh?” You held up your hand. “At least, not during the game. I could live with it happening any other time.” 
“Don’t speak it into existence,” your mom said. “We’re going to have a monster-free school year.” 
To humor her, you made a claw over your heart and pushed out. She hummed in satisfaction, and you looked over at Luke. “It’s gonna be fine.” 
“Yeah,” he said. “Because two kids like us aren’t gonna draw any attention.” 
“Oh, I know we will,” you said. “But I know it’ll be fine.” 
Luke frowned. “How can you be so sure?” 
You shrugged with a smile. “I’ve got you.”
And in that moment, he was thankful for the freakish heat that honestly made no sense in the spring—at least it covered up any sign of what your words did to him. 
Luke thought you were joking when you asked him if he wanted to come back home with you for the school year. He didn’t know why you wanted to go back in the first place, being a Big Three kid that apparently had a death wish, but the thought of him leaving camp was almost inconceivable. 
Even after you assured him you weren’t joking, he still wasn’t sure. He was on the run with you for three years, then… 
Well, he couldn’t think about it for too long. But Luke had been on the outskirts of regular society for so long, doing nothing but fighting for his life, that he didn’t know if he could actually function at a normal school.
But it felt right for you two to get some normal time together after you were separated for so long. It took him a semester to decide, but one day during your usual Iris message conversations, he told you he’d love to spend the rest of the year in Boston with you. Luke still remembered the grin you wore, your disbelieving but victorious cheers, the apology you yelled back at your mother for your noise. 
Luke watched you as you talked with your mom, discussing Boston’s chances and player statistics and baseball jargon he didn’t think he’d ever understand, and he knew he would sit through a thousand Red Sox games if it meant he would get to keep seeing your smile.
You must have felt his eyes on you, because you glanced over at him. “Are you okay?” 
Luke smiled. Gods, he was so glad you were here. 
“Never better.” 
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“That one nearly got me,” Luke said. 
Percy huffed as he picked up his sword from the ground—he was pretty sure he would officially lose his mind if Luke disarmed him with that stupid move one more time. One benefit to the Hermes cabin being too scared to associate with him after getting claimed was that he wasn’t making a fool out of himself in front of other people. 
“Maybe I can only beat you when I pour water on myself,” he said. 
Luke chuckled as he took a bottle from the cooler on the side and held it up. “Wanna try?” 
He shook his head. “I think my arms will fall off if I keep going with you.” 
He tipped his shoulder. “Fair.” 
Percy stared at the ground as Luke gathered himself, trying to put the free range thoughts roaming around his head in order. It didn’t help that he’d gained a million questions after Poseidon claimed him, and it didn’t help that there’s been a newest addition to his dream last night. 
He still felt strange asking Luke about it, but he had to know more about her. Percy didn’t know why it felt like his mission to find out who this mysterious girl was, or why he felt that strange connection to her. Maybe it was the way Luke acted whenever he brought her up, maybe it was that she’d popped up in his dream next to him at the very end, maybe it was just plain old curiosity. 
“I’m not supposed to be alive,” Percy said, breaking the silence. “I could die at any time in a bunch of different horrible ways. So will you tell me more about that girl on your wall?”  
Again, Luke seemed to be caught off guard by it. Percy heard the crunch of plastic as his hand clenched ever so slightly around the bottle, and he tried to cover it up with an arched eyebrow. “Why do you want to know so badly?” 
He shrugged. What was he supposed to say? 
“I’m curious,” he decided. 
Luke huffed a dry laugh before he took a sip of water, and he stared off into the distance for a while. He did a lot of staring whenever this girl was brought up. They looked like they were best friends in those pictures, but maybe whatever they had ended badly. And if she was a demigod too…
Well, it would make sense why he didn’t want to talk about her. 
“You know that phrase about curiosity?” Luke asked. 
“And how it killed the cat?” 
He nodded, drinking some more. “It goes double for demigods.” 
“Everything else wants to kill me,” Percy said. “So curiosity’s gonna have to get in line.” 
Luke’s laugh was a little more genuine this time, and he shook his head. “I guess I can tell you a little about her. You actually probably have a right to know.” 
“Is she a half-blood?” Percy asked immediately. 
He nodded. “Yeah.” 
“Who’s her parent?” 
Luke capped his water bottle and looked at Percy for a good, long moment. His face glowed in the warm afternoon sun, his scar cast in a softer light than usual. The scar used to unnerve him, but he’d gotten used to it after weeks staring at it during sword fighting. 
“She was a child of Poseidon, Percy,” he said. “Just like you.” 
Percy felt short of breath, like Luke had just knocked his sword out of his hand and shoved him to the ground. But he stood on his own two legs that somehow still worked, and Luke hadn’t moved. 
He had a sister? 
“I have a sister?” 
“…Had,” Luke corrected. “She… she died a few years back.” 
A vice latched onto Percy’s heart. He was still having a hard time breathing. No wonder Luke always used past tense when he was talking about her. 
He had a sister, he wasn’t alone, but he was because she was dead. And if Luke was one of her friends, that meant she died young. 
Gods. 
“What about their oath?” Percy asked, trying to ignore the aching in his chest. “I’m already on thin ice for my whole existing thing. How did Poseidon get away with two kids so close to each other?” 
Luke shrugged. “I’ve never known why gods do things. Her mother was a great woman, though—I could see what drew Poseidon to her against the oath.” 
One half of Percy wanted to ask every question that kept popping into his head. The other side of him wanted to break down and cry. 
“How did you meet her?” 
“We ran into each other when we were both young,” he said. “Both child runaways, both demigods, both New Englanders—we decided to rough it out on the road together. Couldn’t be any worse than doing it on our own.”
Percy tried to imagine it. A young Luke and a younger version of that girl—maybe Percy’s age—living together in the wilderness and fighting monsters. Surviving off of nothing but their wit and skill, facing death each day before they’d even reached middle school. 
“It… it didn’t happen then, did it?” he asked hesitantly. 
Luke shook his head. “Couple years later. All we did was watch each other’s backs out there.” 
Percy couldn’t help himself. “What happened to her?”  
“The same thing that happens to everyone,” Luke said flatly. “There’s a reason I’m the oldest one here.” 
“That doesn’t make it better,” Percy insisted. “It— it makes it worse, Luke. You see that, right?”  
Luke stared at his empty water bottle then tossed it back into the cooler. When his gaze met Percy’s, he was shocked by how… tired he looked. Beyond exhausted—bone-weary. Percy wanted to say more, but he didn’t get the chance. 
“This isn’t good conversation,” Luke said, “and it’s getting late. You should hit the showers before dinner.” 
The sun still beat down on them, bright and angry in the sky, but Percy provided no argument. He had a lot to think about. 
Before they went their separate ways, Percy stopped and looked back at him. “I’m sorry she’s gone, Luke.” 
Luke’s gaze went unfocused for a moment, his eyes growing glossy. “So am I.” 
-
Percy sat on the floor of the Hermes cabin in the corner that used to be his, staring at his meager belongings. He had to decide what to take on his quest, which was made easier by the fact that he hardly had anything to his name. Things could always be worse, though. At least he would have a change of clothes. 
He should’ve been doing this in his own cabin, but it felt too empty, too suffocating in its silence. Eleven was still more familiar. He heard the door open and saw Luke walk in, and his eyes lit up when he saw Percy. 
“Hey,” he said. “I wanted to see you before you left. How’re you feeling pre-quest?” 
“Like the world’s about to end,” he said. 
Luke’s lips twitched into a smile as he sat on the bed across from Percy. “Understandable. It kinda is.” 
“It’s just overwhelming.” Percy shoved the unfolded clothes into his backpack. “I have to clear mine and my dad’s names and get Zeus’s bolt back, or else war will start. No pressure at all.” 
“You were chosen for a reason,” Luke said. “You may not see it, Percy, but you’ve improved a lot since you got here. If anyone can do this, I think it’s you.” 
Percy looked up at him, and he was reminded of the way their last conversation went. He was asking before he could really stop himself. 
“I could die on this quest and never see you again,” Percy said. “So could you tell me more about my sister before I go?”  
Luke smiled wistfully and sighed. “You really won’t let this go, will you?” 
“It’s not really something you just let go,” he said. “Besides, I… I saw her in my dream last night.” 
Luke’s smile faded. “You did?”  
Percy nodded. “For a split second, but I know it was her. I felt the same way I did whenever I looked at her pictures. And… it’s the second time she’s shown up.” 
He let out a long sigh and shook his head, his gaze trailing off to the wall. He always looked so much older when he talked about this girl, like he was a war veteran reminiscing on his lost love. And from what he’d gathered, it might not have been too far off. 
“I told you we ran together when we were young,” he said, and Percy nodded. “We were both nine, and it should’ve been terrible, but she had a way of making everything better. Always found the bright side of things, was always able to make me laugh.” 
“She was from Massachusetts—right in the middle of Boston.” Luke chuckled as he looked at Percy. “Huge Red Sox fan.” 
Percy grimaced. “We all make mistakes.” 
Luke smiled, though it faded a bit. “We got separated for a while, but we found each other again when I got to camp. Things were more peaceful than they are now, so she’d been claimed at camp pretty quickly. I figure Poseidon wanted her to have the protection of him openly standing behind her after what happened.” 
He frowned. “What do you mean, ‘what happened’?” 
Luke shook his head. “That would be an awful story to send you off on.” 
Percy wanted to protest, but he didn’t. Luke was probably right—Percy didn’t want to make him relive it and then have to go on a death quest right after.
“A happier part, then,” he suggested.
“She ran away from home as a kid to protect her mom, but now that she had an idea of what she was doing, she started going back to school. She invited me to stay with her during the school year one year, and I accepted. That—” Luke’s throat bobbed, and the other hand clenched into a fist— “that was when she died.” 
In his stunned silence, Luke got up and went over to his alcove. He pulled the drawer open on his bedside table and pulled out a neatly folded piece of paper. It must’ve been folded and crumpled a million other times in messier ways by all the creases he could see, but when Luke opened it, he could see handwriting all over the front. 
A letter. 
“We Iris messaged each other constantly while she was at school,” he said, “and we wrote back and forth when we couldn’t. This was the last letter she sent me.” 
Percy’s first instinct was to say he wouldn’t be able to read it, but he realized that he didn’t really care. These were words that his sister wrote—he would sit here the rest of the day forcing sentences to make sense if that was what it took. 
So he took the letter when Luke offered it. 
To the one and only Luke Castellan, 
My mom said yes! After a very long interrogation (she now knows basically everything about you) and a million promises that you would be as careful as possible and that you were good enough at sword fighting to take down anything that could come after us, she said you can spend the year here. We spent a couple hours every day making my mom’s study into a guest room, so you have a place to stay.
I’m an idiot that didn’t bring enough drachmas so that’s why I have to send this letter—hopefully it gets to you soon enough, because we’re gonna come get you a week before my winter break is over. Mom is letting me drive down because she says I have to get my permit soon. It makes sense that my first big test is getting to you. If we don’t make it, it’s because we died in a fiery crash. 
Just kidding. I’m a great driver. But tell me some of your favorite songs when you reply and I’ll burn a CD for the ride—I figured out how to use LimeWire. Oh, and throw in a couple drachmas with the envelope so I can Iris message you next time. I miss your face and your voice, and my hand is cramping up writing all of this. 
But this is so exciting! I can’t wait to introduce you to all my friends at school, and show you my favorite places in the city, and make you into a Red Sox fan. And you can come to my soccer games— I’m the greatest forward there is. 
Jokes aside, I’m going to make sure you have the best time. We’ll spend every second together, Luke. We’re gonna make up for the time we lost. 
I can’t wait to see you again.
Your hurricane.  
It took Percy a long time to get through it with the words swimming all over, and it didn’t help that his vision had grown blurry. 
Tears, he realized as he blinked, and he did it again to make sure they wouldn’t fall. He couldn’t cry in front of Luke, not over a girl he didn’t even know—even if she was his sister. But maybe he was grieving that—the fact that he would never get to know her. 
“God, man. I— I’m sorry.” Percy couldn’t think of anything else to say. “She sounds like she was great.” 
Luke couldn’t even manage a smile this time as he stared at the wall. Percy was surprised he could even talk to him about it. 
“She was,” he murmured. “You would’ve liked her. And gods,” this time, a bit of a smile broke through despite it all, “she would have loved a little brother.” 
“I’m gonna make her proud on this quest,” Percy vowed. “I’m gonna clear our dad’s name for her.”
Something in Luke’s gaze had changed—sadness, almost regret. “You’re a good kid, Percy. I hope your quest doesn’t change that.” 
I hope I come back alive, he wanted to say. But given the topic matter, he didn’t. Percy carefully folded the letter back up and handed it to Luke. 
“Thank you for telling me about her, man,” Percy said. “I… I know it can’t be easy.”
Luke let out a shuddering breath as he stared at the closed letter—Percy wondered how many times he must have sat in this same position, reading her words. “No better way to honor her memory than helping her brother.” He glanced at Percy. “I see a lot of her in you.” 
He’d been wondering if he had anything in common with her. Percy felt a sudden flare of anger shoot through him—it wasn’t fair that she was dead. Poseidon was a god, and she was a teenager. He should have saved her. 
Percy’s mouth was drier than a desert. A part of him wanted to curl up in a ball and sob over the sister he never got the chance to know, but the other part of him knew—from what little Luke had told him about her—that she wouldn’t want him to. 
“I should get going,” Percy said, standing up from the floor. “We have to leave for the quest soon, and Annabeth and Grover are probably wondering where I am, and…” 
Percy trailed off, and Luke nodded in understanding. He turned around and took one of the photos off the wall—one of you alone in the middle of a park, wearing a bucket hat and absolutely beaming. 
“You deserve to have a part of her with you,” he said. “For good luck.” 
He felt himself choking up, and he pushed it down as he accepted the photo. “Thanks, man. It means a lot.”
“Good luck, Percy,” Luke said. “You’ve got a lot of people rooting for you.”
Percy found himself studying the picture of you once he made it outside, trying to memorize your face. With your wide, infectious smile that emanated pure sunlight, he could have mistaken you for an Apollo kid. But when he looked at you, he got that same warmth that he felt every time he imagined his father. 
“I won’t let you down,” he murmured. “I promise.” 
-
After sleeping in his train seat for half the day, Percy vowed to never complain about his bed in Cabin Three again. He was gonna be going down to the Underworld with permanent cricks in his neck. 
Grover was still sound asleep—Percy envied him for how easily it came to him in the worst conditions—but thankfully, Annabeth wasn’t. Her gaze was focused on the view as their train chugged along. 
Percy cleared his throat in a flawless attempt at getting her attention, and it worked. 
“You’re awake,” she said. 
“Unfortunately.” Percy sighed. “How much longer do you think it’ll be?” 
“Another day, at least,” she said. “And we’ve got a layover in St. Louis.” 
“St. Louis,” he hummed. “Nice.” 
They sat in silence for a while—there wasn’t much to talk about when they were coming off of two— or was it three, now?—near-death experiences. But eventually, Annabeth cleared her throat, taking a page from his book, and it worked again. 
“There— there’s probably something you should know,” Annabeth said, and that worked even better than clearing her throat. “You’re not the only Big Three kid to come through Camp Half-blood lately.” 
“I know,” he said. “Grover and Luke explained it.” 
Her eyes widened slightly and she leaned forward in her seat. “Luke did?” 
“…Yeah. You all already told me about Thalia.” Percy glanced away, suddenly feeling a chill in the train car. “Luke told me about my sister.” 
Annabeth went silent. 
“It’s okay,” he said. “I kind of annoyed Luke until he told me. Doesn’t really seem like a subject people at camp like to talk about.” 
“I’m just surprised he did,” she murmured. “They were… they were close, Percy. Her death destroyed him—Thalia and your sister. All of it’s complicated.”  
“Yeah,” he sighed, “I got some of that.” 
“I only knew her for a year at camp, but everyone loved her,” she said. “She was nice. Popular. Always helped when she could, always had the biggest, most infectious smile on her face.” Annabeth looked down at her hands. “She didn’t deserve the fate she got.” 
Percy didn’t think he’d ever grieved so much for someone he never knew. “But her and Luke—were they…?” 
“Yeah,” Annabeth said, “they were a thing, later on.” 
That seemed to be all she wanted to say on the matter. Percy decided not to push. 
“How did you meet her?” he asked. 
Annabeth’s lips pressed into a thin line. “I met her on the day I thought I would die.”
-
For the first time in her life, Annabeth Chase couldn’t think. 
It had all happened so fast. One second she was running with Luke and Thalia and Grover, praying to her mother and any other gods that would listen to make the horde of monsters let up even a centimeter.
The next, she’d collapsed on the ground, never so grateful to have grass and dirt and dust in her face. But she could hear Luke yelling, barely able to make it out in her delirious state—she didn’t know when she’d last had a sip of water, and they’d been running for at least three miles—but he sounded hysterical. 
She remembered her last clear thought: they weren’t going to make it. 
But they had. They had, so why was Luke losing his mind? 
Annabeth pulled herself up from the ground—how long had she been bleeding out of those slashes on her arm?—and looked for the rest of her friends. Luke wasn’t yelling anymore, instead arguing with someone she didn’t recognize in a bright orange shirt. Grover’s furry legs trembled as he stared down the hill they’d just gotten up, completely silent, and Thalia— 
Where was Thalia? 
Annabeth tried to get up but her legs gave out almost immediately, and steady arms caught her before she could fall to the ground again. Kind eyes served to ease some of her panic—she was older than Annabeth, maybe around Luke or Thalia’s age. 
Thalia— 
“Hey, you’re okay,” the voice said, and Annabeth’s attention was drawn back to you. “I’ve got you.” 
“Where’s Thalia?” she blurted out, because now she couldn’t think of anything else. 
Your brows creased and you glanced back down the hill—Annabeth did too, and she saw Grover and Luke arguing with each other. Or rather, Luke was yelling at him as Grover anxiously hooked his hands through his hair. 
“I don’t know,” you said, “but right now, I need to make sure you’re okay. Are you hurt?” 
Annabeth absentmindedly held up her arm, but she was only focused on her friends. Why wasn’t Thalia with them? Why was Luke so upset?
You cursed under your breath in Ancient Greek as you cradled her arm, and you looked back down the hill. Annabeth could see at least half a dozen other kids. 
“We’ve got two half-bloods and a satyr, one injured!” you yelled back. “Get Molly and Brayden!” 
“Three,” Annabeth found herself saying. “There’s three half-bloods—” 
“Annabeth!” 
Her head shot up at the sound of Luke calling her name as he bounded over, and her eyes widened at the blood steadily spidering across the fabric of his shirt. 
“Luke, you’re hurt—” 
“I’m fine,” he insisted. “It’s fine.” 
“We have Apollo kids coming,” you said, looking up at him, still cradling Annabeth’s arm. “We’ll get y—” 
Your sentence stuck in your throat, and Annabeth could see tears welling in your eyes as your brows furrowed. She thought Luke’s eyes might burst out of his skull as he stared at you, his lips parted but nothing coming out. Neither of you were able to form words. 
When he finally did get something out, it was a single name. One Annabeth knew by heart, one that he’d mourned for years. 
“Luke?” you whispered. 
Before he had the chance to do anything, two teenagers got over the hill and called out your name, the same one Luke used. He always said you were dead, but you clearly weren’t dead, because you were here and you had her arm in your grasp and while your hands were cold, they weren’t cold enough to be dead— 
“Molly’s gonna take care of you,” you said, looking back at Annabeth and cutting off her inner dialogue. “She’ll get you to the infirmary and heal you up, okay?” 
“My friends—” 
“They’re gonna be okay too,” you said. “I promise.” 
Annabeth looked up at Luke, and he nodded. “We’ll be with you soon, Annabeth. We— we have to talk about some things.” 
So she went with Molly down the hill, and Annabeth put pressure on her bleeding wound when she told her to—it had started to sting like hell now that her adrenaline was fading. 
She looked back just in time to see you and Luke share the tightest hug ever. 
The hug of two people who realized they weren’t seeing ghosts, Annabeth thought. 
-
You bolted up in bed, eyes wide and your chest heaving as you rapidly sucked in air. Your fingers found purchase in your bedsheets, desperate for something familiar—it took a second for you to recognize your surroundings, that you weren’t in an endless void, but your childhood bedroom offered little comfort.  
You ran a hand over your forehead, damp with sweat, as you tried to calm down. Your breathing slowed, but you couldn’t shake that awful feeling that hung over you in your sleep. 
Your nightmares were getting worse, you knew that much. That raspy, demented voice used to be a rarity, and now it appeared every night. You could usually deal with your nightmares, but the sense of absolute dread that voice and the pit fostered in you was too much. You hadn’t managed to sleep through the night once since you came home for the school year.
You could deal with the monsters—to you, this was the worst part of your godly blood.
A knock rattled on the door out of nowhere, and you nearly jumped out of your skin. The only thing that calmed you down was the thought that monsters didn’t knock. 
“Come in,” you croaked, your throat drier than a desert. 
Thankfully, a monster hadn’t come to make your night even more miserable. Luke stood in the doorway, his eyebrows creased in concern, messy curls hanging just above his eyes. He wore the Red Sox t-shirt you’d bought for him at the game you dragged him to, and in your addled state, you didn’t even think to tease him about it. 
“Are you okay?” He should’ve been as disoriented as you, but his alerted eyes told a different story. 
You could only think of one thing. “How did you know?” 
Luke’s lips parted for a moment, as if he hadn’t even considered it. “I could just feel it.”
You managed a smile despite every atom in your body screaming at you. “I think that means you can come in.” 
He closed the door behind him, and you shifted over in your bed to make room for him. There wasn’t much in a twin, but you made it work. Luke’s weight pressed into the mattress, making you adjust your position, and it was more comforting than any amount of blankets. 
“You’re so cold,” he murmured, laying the back of his hand against your arm. “How do you live like that?” 
“Blame my dad,” you said. “I’ve got water in my blood.” 
“I think that’s probably a bad thing,” Luke said, and you knocked your shoulder into his with a huff. 
“You know what I mean.” 
Luke let his hand fall back in his lap, and as you brought your knees up to your chest, you pulled the covers with them. 
“So,” Luke said, glancing at you, “what’s got you awake at the witching hour?” 
“The usual,” you mumbled. 
“Nightmares that might be prophetic?” he asked. 
You made a lazy gesture with your hand. “Bingo.” 
“The worst sense of dread imaginable?” 
“Bullseye.” 
“I’m sorry,” he said. 
You shrugged. “It’s nothing I can’t deal with.” 
“You don’t always have to put on a front, y’know,” Luke said. You felt his eyes on you. “You don’t always have to be strong.” 
“I’m naturally strong,” you said with mock austerity. “Comes with the god for a dad.” 
Luke chuckled and shook his head. “You know what I mean.” 
“Yeah,” you murmured. 
You leaned into his side, fitting your head into the crook of his neck. Luke wrapped his arm around you, pulling you closer, and you let out a contented sigh. 
That voice in your nightmares seemed so small when you had Luke. 
“Can you stay?” you asked softly. 
He didn’t hesitate. “Of course.” 
“Just like old times,” you whispered. 
“Just like old times,” he agreed. 
Luke ran hot, and you’d never been more thankful for it as you fully settled into his side. Icy blood ran through your veins, and you let out a shaky sigh. You could hear his steady breathing, feel his heartbeat through his chest, and the anxiety from earlier began to steadily fade. You never felt safer than when you were with Luke. 
There was something between you—you weren’t that stupid—but you hadn’t talked about it. With you and Luke, it was just… you and Luke. You didn’t have to put a label to it. 
How could you put a label to your relationship, when you’d spent your first few years together fighting for each day, and then the next few thinking the other was dead? 
Maybe someday, you would talk about it. But for now, this was more than enough. 
“Don’t worry,” Luke murmured in your ear as your eyes began to droop. “I’m not gonna let anything happen to you.” 
And by the gods, you believed him. 
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IN WHICH— ballerina! reader loves to do tiktok trends
| some swearing but i think thats it
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01: we listen and we dont judge
matt’s phone was set up, capturing the happy couple sitting in front of matt’s gaming setup, his arms wrapped tightly around her waist, face sat on her shoulders
“okay, i know this isn’t matt’s usual 1 month lip sync video, but i’ve been dying to do this,” she looks at matt through the phone screen, a small smile plastered on his face. “we listen and we dont judge,” they both say, matt allowing the girl to go first. “okay so,’ she begins, sighing dramatically. “sometimes, after we eat diner and i say im so full, when you come upstairs to play fortnite, i grab a bowl of ice cream and down it”
matt laughs, “thats why you always taste like strawberry afterwards,” you smack his arm playfully, “i always assumed it was your lip balm” he giggles out, leaving a small kiss on your shoulder
"we listen and we don’t judge”
“so, sometimes when you’re telling me about something you saw, or did, or just any story really, i secretly set a timer on my phone to see how long it takes you to finish telling me that story. “matt!” you excaim, hitting his knee, “your record is like 11 minutes” he laughs out, watching as you join him. “thats your minimum record sweetie, that’s the bar i’ve set to get out of the conversation”
“we listen and we dont judge”
“on the rare occasion that i wake up early, and like before you, i just admire you. i even take pictures of you, i have like a whole album of you sleeping, i feel like i have over 200” matt’s jaw drops, “you watch me sleep?!” “hey, hey! we listen and,” ‘we dont judge… okay well sometimes when i say the bluetooth in my car has been acting up it’s really because i don’t wanna hear your music” "babe!" you pout, “i have excellent music taste!!” ‘’i never said you didn’t, sometimes im just not in the mood for taylor swift, “okay… valid”
“we listen and we don’t judge”
“okay this might be a little weird, but when we first started dating, i thought your teeth were the most attractive part of you…” matt side eyes the girl in front of him, “what?” "yeah! honestly it wasn’t even when we started dating, when i first became a fan of the sturniolo triplets, i thought your teeth were just the hottest thing in the world," “is that why you always lick them—” "hey! we listen,” "and we don’t judge. i check your makeup products every 2 weeks to see how you’re doing on them, and if something is below halfway through, i immediately order a replacement” “wait stop, thats so cute” “that’s why i always manage to ‘guess’ what you need in those little baskets i give you” "i love you” you mumble, rubbing your hand on his
“last one?” he asks, bringing your hand up to his mouth, giving it a small peck. “mhm, we listen and we don’t judge. anytime i cook, i never let you serve our plates because i know you’ll give me more food than i’m allowed to eat” matt looks at you through the phone, facial expression a little saddened, “whattt, you know i have a strict diet”
“yeah...but you know i’d still love you if you were a little chunkier…right?" the boy mumbles, rubbing your stomach. “yeah i know, i wouldn’t mind it i suppose, but you know i can’t be due to the roles i get”
“we listen and we don’t judge”
“whenever we have anything in a jar, i always make sure to tighten them as much as i can so you’ll always come ask me for help” matt laughs out, watching as disbelief crawls onto your face. “matthew!” "hey we aren’t judging!!” "wait i have one more! remember that time we watched a scary movie and you couldn’t spend the night?” "yeah?” "after you left, i grabbed the biggest kitchen knife i have and slept with it” matt’s jaw drops, “i was scared!” you giggle, “sweetie that’s so dangerous, you could’ve came with me y'know"
02: calling my boyfriend my husband
your phone was propped up on your vanity, capturing your whole room along with your connected bathroom's door
"hey guys!! come get dressed with me to go on a movie date with my husband!" you exclaim, clasping your hands together
"you said what?" matt's head pokes out from the bathroom, a big smile plastered on his face. "hm?" you ask, tone littered with fake confusion
"who're you going on a date with?" "my husband?" "who?! me!?" he asks, practically bouncing with joy. "yeah! who else?" "so you wanna marry me??" "of course i do!" you laugh out, squealing as the giddy boy runs up to you
he picks you up and spins around, laughing with excitement, "yall heard that?! we're getting married!"
03: trying on my boyfriends clothes while he isnt home
"hellur tiktok, im currently in my boyfriend's closet tryna piece outfits together. where's matt some may ask? great question, think they went to get food"
you stop the clip, grabbing your first outfit; a simple green fresh love shirt with baggy jeans and his red dunks. you're quick to put everything on, pressing the red button on your screen once again
"chris seriously needs to make crop tops" you mumble, grabbing the shirt so it'd fit your figure and tying it with a hair tie. "lowkey, this isnt bad! yes the shoes are huge on me, and i look like im sagging, but nothing a belt cant fix!" you say, walking back to the closet while holding your pants up.
"see!" you say, securing the belt on and giving a 360 spin. "i'd definitely wear this somewhere, maybe a concert? on to the next fit!"
the next clip in your tiktok captures you in the center of the screen, shaking your head no. "i tried to make this work, but this is just a no" you were wearing a classic white tank top paired with grey sweats, and they just didnt make you look good, at least in your eyes
you stop the clip and look at your next option, his infamous pink bear shirt and his blue plaid pajama pants. you actually liked this one, it fit big on you, but it made you feel comfy
"i like this one! next time i spend the night here, imma wear this. yeah its a bit big..." you stretch your hands out, the shirt still covering your belly, "but it's comfy! oh my god, after a long day of rehearsal, when all i wanna do is sleep afterwards?? yeah this is the fit!" you give the camera another 360 spin, arms still extended
you suddenly stop, your face immediately turns a slight shade of red. "baby? what're you doing?" the camera picks up, watching as you put your arms down. "uhhh what does it look like?" you nervously ask, you weren't expecting matt to be home so early, and you especially weren't expecting him to see you like this
"looks like you were trying on my clothes," he licks his lips, a mischievous smile making its way onto his face. "you look good, like really good" he mumbles, entering the room and walking towards you. "matthew be for real," you playfully roll your eyes at him. "oh i am", he swiftly picks you up, kissing you deeply. you instinctively wrap your legs around him, arms going to wrap around his neck as well
"recording. stop it" you mumble, waving to your phone. matt quickly reconnects your lips, walking towards your phone and smacking it down. the last thing it caught before the timer ran out was your squeal as matt threw you onto the bed
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seeing all these baby daddy shaunana agenda got me thinking abt babydaddy nat, is it possible to rq something like that w herPLSSS i def see her as a girl dad nd dont worry this time im not giving u my non-existent first born in return but PLSZS BABY DADDY NAT
— baby daddy fratboy!natalie scatorccio x fem!reader
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a/n: baby daddy fratboy lottie is next 😛
summary: she didn’t mean for that to happen. and yeah… she’s terrified but she tries. for this kid. for you. fluff. pregnant!reader. g!p character.
warnings: slight NSFW - MDNI
KNOCKING YOU UP...
This wasn’t supposed to happen at all.
What’s more, Nat was so terrified of even the thought of having a child that she always, always, carried condoms with her. She didn’t even trust girls, who said they were on the pill. She had to check for herself that she was protected.
And maybe she was careful… but in the end, she still ended up in bed with you, drunk and high like never before.
Later, Nat tried to convince herself it was because you looked so good that night. She had watched, no, been tortured, by the sight of her girl dancing all night. It was only natural that after another bottle and who the fuck knows how many joints, well… she got hard just looking at you. Painfully hard.
She tried to hide it, adjusting her too tight jeans, scanning herself with already bloodshot eyes. And just when she thought she looked fine, the erection wasn’t visible, and she was calming down...
You came and sat on her lap.
“Jesus Christ,” she muttered, squirming beneath you.
You started rambling something about some rumors, sipping your drink and breathing heavily from dancing. Finally, at some point, you shifted, felt the bulge, and went silent, staring at her.
Neither of you had ever been that turned on by each other before. So naturally... Nat completely forgot about the condoms. She beat herself up over it afterward, feeling guilty in a way she couldn’t quite shake.
So yeah, Nat panicked when you came into her room at the frat house and told her you were pregnant. For a moment, you didn’t even get a response. She sat on her bed, looking at you like she was trying to reject what she’d just heard.
“I need a walk,” she finally choked out, and grabbing her leather jacket, she practically ran out of the house, leaving you alone in her room. The door slammed behind her. Jackie and Lottie were home, and the fact that Nat bolted like she was on fire, even though her girlfriend was there, was... at the very least, suspicious.
That evening, you ended up crying into Lottie’s shoulder, while Jackie tried to reassure you that Nat would come back and that everything would be okay.
And indeed, just when you were almost asleep, propped up against the headboard and wrapped in every blanket Jackie's hands could reach earlier that day, Nat returned. Sober, which was already good. She smelled like cigarette smoke and was soaking wet, so you figured it must’ve been raining outside.
She collapsed next to you, slowly resting her head on your lap breathing like she’d just run a marathon. She didn’t have the courage to look you in the eye but she was there. At least.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered, her throat tightening. “I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have…”
A moment of silence. Nat shifted, pressing a kiss to your hand, the same one that just seconds ago had been tangled in her hair.
“I’m really sorry, baby.”
PREGNANCY...
Nat was terrified of absolutely everything related to your pregnancy. She treated you like something incredibly fragile, as if she might break you with just a careless wave of her hand. And honestly, it was hard to blame her, with her parents, well… she definitely didn’t win the lottery.
The first few weeks were filled with choking guilt, a constant, gnawing fear buried deep in her mind, and a complete lack of clue about what to do.
Her first goal was to apologize. You weren’t holding a grudge, but Nat needed full, verbal confirmation that you weren’t angry she ran out so suddenly. And truthfully, she was just embarrassed.
Flowers became an everyday thing. She didn’t have much money, so she’d ask Lottie to lend her some. Just for now, she knew she was racking up a debt. Though Lottie never, not even once, asked to be paid back during your pregnancy.
That’s when Nat realized she needed a job. Anything, just to give you and the baby decent living conditions, not a dorm room or a frat house reeking of weed.
Maybe she didn’t know how to be a good father. Didn’t know how to take care of you or the baby, and kept wondering how the hell she wasn’t going to fuck everything up. But one thing was certain: she wasn’t going to let you live like that.
She clung to every opportunity, until eventually she landed a job at a gas station, working for next to nothing. But it was something. Enough to rent even the tiniest apartment. She’d come home in the morning, taking night shifts, because she decided college could wait. Right now, it was all about you and the baby.
She’d find you in the bathroom getting ready for class, step up behind you and gently wrap her arms around you, pressing a kiss to your neck.
“You don’t need all that shits and makeup, you look beautiful,” she’d mumble, barely staying on her feet after working all night.
You always wanted to protest, you’d literally been throwing up twenty minutes ago and probably looked like hell but she’d always say the same thing:
“You’re still my most beautiful girl.”
She’d go to sleep after that, only to wake up around noon and cook lunch for when you got home. She had never cared about nutrition or any of those stupid shits before, but now she learned how to cook.
Because you needed to eat well. She did the grocery shopping, cleaned the place while you were out. Even if you didn’t spend most nights together, Nat made sure the fridge was stocked and the house spotless.
Nat, who texted you basically every hour, asking if you were okay, if you’d eaten, if you managed to shower. Maybe she should come over and help? What should she pick up on the way back? Maybe you two could go out this weekend?
Honestly, if she could’ve installed a tracking app on your phone, she would’ve.
Natalie who stopped spending money on weed. Every time her hands itched to go get some, she went to the store instead and bought baby clothes or toys. Which eventually led to a mountain of things for the baby who wasn’t even born yet.
Nat, who decided she wouldn’t pay anyone fucked up amounts for a crib and one day, after measuring everything carefully, built one herself, covering the living room in sawdust. She stood at the end of it all, sweaty in a tank top, and gave a proud nod.
“I told you you’d figure it out,” you said with a soft smile and she scrunched her nose.
You’d say that. Because you had to be the one to reassure Nat that she could do it. That she wasn’t like her father. That nothing her parents had done defined her as a parent now. That she was going to be so much better, and that you’d learn it all together.
She’d nod. And indeed, with every tiny onesie she bought, every piece of furniture she put together, every doctor’s appointment she went to, she grew a little less afraid. A little less afraid of that deep love and attachment for a tiny human who wasn’t even here yet.
She was still nervous about touching your belly, like she might somehow hurt you. You’d take her hand and place it over the spot where the baby was kicking. Her eyes would widen, and for a moment she’d stare at you in shock.
“You feel that?”
“Christ,” she’d mutter, instantly adjusting herself on the bed and pressing her hands gently to your stomach. “Someone’s kicking hard.”
She’d smile softly to herself. And for the first time, she kissed your belly.
For the first time in her life, Nat felt a bit of peace. No parties, no chaos. All the student drama and arguments suddenly felt blown out of proportion. She found calm in work, in grocery trips, in quiet evenings with you, lightly stroking your bump.
Nat, who tied your shoes and helped you get dressed when it started becoming too painful. You wanted so badly to stay independent, but whenever she heard even the smallest groan, she was right there.
“Give it to me,” she’d say, kneeling in front of you and taking your socks.
“I can do it myself,” you’d grumble.
“I know you can,” she’d smile, slipping them on three times faster than you could. “But I’m helping anyway.”
Nat, who stopped smoking in the apartment. She still went to the frat house sometimes, but she’d come home earlier now. She physically couldn’t stand being away from you. Especially when you’d stop replying after a certain hour, and she knew you’d fallen asleep.
“It’s me,” she’d whisper, slipping into bed and wrapping her arms around you. You stirred, but when you felt her familiar hands, you started drifting off again.
“It’s just me. Go back to sleep, baby.”
Because maybe Nat ran away at the very beginning. But in the end, she always came back to you. And that you were sure of.
BIRTH...
The moment your water broke, Natalie panicked again. Only for a moment, because, truth be told, she had planned everything out well in advance, just so she’d know exactly what to do. For once in her life, she was prepared. It just…caught her a little off guard.
The entire time, she bombarded you with questions if you're not dying..yeah. Even her italian accent slipped out.
Even after you were already at the hospital, taken over by a whole team of doctors and nurses, she'd stil lighlty panicking. When you finally snapped at her, sweating from the effort and pain, Nat realized she probably wasn’t helping at all and stepped back. A nurse gently escorted her to the waiting room, saying it would take some time and that maybe she should come back in a few hours.
Nat didn’t hear a word of it, her mind was still with you. It was already late, and she had made up her mind: she’d sleep outside the delivery room if that’s what it took.
At first, she paced nervous circles down the hallway, her footsteps echoing off the walls, until eventually she landed on one of the hard plastic chairs, drifting off to sleep. It was late. Nat was exhausted.
In the middle of the night, they called her in, and not even drugs had ever jolted her like the words that your daughter is here.
She stood frozen in the middle of the room, eyes scanning the tiny baby in your arms like she couldn’t quite believe that this child, this life, existed in part because of her.
“Do you want to hold her?” you asked, your voice hoarse, but gentle smile playing on your lips.
Natalie hesitated. Then she reached out and took the little one from you, her hands were shaking, but she managed to hold on her kid. The fragile body still swollen, red, impossibly small.
And as Natalie looked down at the baby, she murmured something quietly under her breath. A secret, just between her and her daughter.
“I’ll never hurt you. I promise," words she never heard but wished. "You're safe with me."
FIRST MONTHS...
Nat wasn’t home most nights, and as much as it pained her, she couldn’t always be there to help. But it was a completely different story in the mornings when you had to go to class, and sometimes left her alone with the baby.
“I can take her with me…” you’d offer, but Nat would already be silencing you with a kiss.
“You’ve done enough. I’ve got this,” she’d say every time, pulling you close, like she was trying to show her gratitude just for you being there.
She had to learn. Learn how to hold the baby, how to change her, how to feed her. When nap time was (that part came easily, since she could nap too), and when the baby just wanted to play or needed attention. At first, when the little one started crying, Nat would panic convinced she’d done something wrong. But then you’d walk in, reassuring her she was doing great. That this kind of thing just happened.
Nat, who sometimes brought Jackie, Lottie, and Shauna over so she could sleep after a night shift. She didn’t want to burden them with some form of weird babysitting, but something made them offer anyway. And so the three frats sat in the living room with the tiny baby, having serious conversations with someone making utterly unserious noises while a random cartoon played in the background.
“Jackie, what are you doing…?” Nat raised an eyebrow, watching Jackie hold the baby up toward… the top kitchen cabinets?
“She’s never been up there, so…” Jackie started, but Shauna usually just snorted, cutting her off. Not quite mocking her , just softening too, at the sight of those little eyes that looked exactly like yours. “So I’m showing her,” Jackie would roll her eyes.
Nat, who made it her mission to completely spoil the kid once she was old enough. Sweets? Of course. Playgrounds? Even better. Now, instead of spending money on substances, she spent it on toys, and anything the baby reached for at the store.
Nat, who would explain classic rock bands to the baby who barely understood what was going on. But hey, at least Nat’s rings sparkled in the sunlight, and you’d watch the whole scene with amused affection.
“I'm providing an education,” Nat would mutter when you brought it up.
Nat, who started saving up for a tiny bike.
Nat, who would sit her daughter on her motorbike, telling her that one day, she’d teach her to ride and get her one just like it.
She didn’t tell you I love you very often. Nat expressed things through actions. Through how she took care of everything: the baby, the bills, the household. But now, she’d randomly say it during the day. Sometimes, she’d just leave little sticky notes behind before heading off to work.
Nat made sure you two went on at least one date a month, and always tried to take the baby out for walks whenever she could.
She wasn’t like her father.
And maybe that’s exactly the confirmation she’d always needed.
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masochistkatsuki · 2 months ago
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late birthday sex is still birthday sex
a/n, kinda toxic dynamic but whats new, katsuki has bigger boobs than the reader but whats new, sub katsuki, dom reader, 99% sure its gn but pls lmk if i gendered anything, degradation, semi public sex, interruptions, tell me if i need to add something please ! proof read once but im dumb as shit and usually need to proof read like five times. pretend i posted this on time
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"katsuki if you dont shut up now I will seriously fucking kill you."
you felt his dick twitch twice rapidly before he whined and threw his head on your shoulder. it was just above a whisper, and way too loud for kirishima's thin walls.
your jaw clenched at the sound- as much as him being pathetic and needy turned you on, it pissed you off equally so. you hope they aren't correlated he was widely regarded as one of the strongest, and most who met him shuddered under his harsh gaze for months after meeting him.
"fuck. please. m' sorry, i swear m' sorry. just need it so bad, you get it, right ?" no. you didn't get it. at all. a few minutes ago, he was cussing out his friends for throwing such a 'stupid' party for his birthday, and looked so mad you assumed his dick was probably shrinking in on itself.
not to mention, you arent a submissive bitch. he clearly is. with the way hes pressing you against the bathroom door, hands threatening to bruise your lips, you'd expect him to be on a power trip. but no. all you had to do was sit around, look at him, and laugh when he came up with a particularly witty insult, and he was asking you to help fix his hair in the bathroom.
he hasn't fixed his hair since interning with best jeanist.
you sighed, a defeated one. you felt him perk up just a little bit. god, no matter how submissive he was, he was still just a little demanding and subtly controlling. of course, you notice this. usually this would've just resulted in you stepping on his dick and going back to the party, saving the group the tension. usually its only awkward because kaminari also gets hard, but if you ignore that they can honestly get past it.
but.. its his birthday. you sigh even louder, mostly just teasing him at this point. before he lets his guard down and gets too playful, you grab a fist of his hair and pull his head to look at yours. a louder, choked moan falls from his lips. you're genuinely weighing the pros and cons. youre trying to rationalize it by saying he deserves it for his birthday but.. the two are definitely correlated.
the more he begs and leaks against your shorts, the more the idea of shutting him up gets maddening. "fine." you roll your eyes and pretend you aren't looking forward to it just as much as he is.
he looks at you with the softest saddest eyes, an expression you wouldve never believed you'd get to see from him when you first met. "if you really dont want to, we dont have to." he began to pull away, but the rawness and vulnerability stirred something so deep within you you almost felt guilty. even more so, his genuine care for how you felt and what you wanted despite of how badly he clearly needed you melted your heart.
"no." you let go of his hair and caressed the back of his neck, gently playing with the small hairs that lead up to the spikes. if he knew any better, hed call the contrast in your touch terrifying. you pulled him closer, so close your breath was fanning against the shell of his ear. between his soft gasps, you said, "i like it when you're like this." you considered your words carefully, you usually wouldnt say something so traditionally submissive, but you didn't want him to feel like what he was doing made you uncomfortable. "please, dont go." you stared even deeper into him, hoping your eyes werent betraying how genuine you were trying to be. "i want you too."
you knew it was probably a little manipulative, acting so mean then throwing in a bit of how you really felt to keep him from leaving. but you also knew he wasnt stupid. the way his eyes lit up and pierced into yours like you were the only person on earth. the way his breath hitched and his dick was finally pushed fully against your stomach. you'd always sugarcoat it when putting it into words, but you knew it was downright manipulative and a pattern, but youd always do it because it made him so fucking happy.
because just like him crying and whining, being pathetic and bitchy made you want him, you being cold, calculating, manipulative, and mean made him feel so painfully good. "fuck. fuck i love you oh my god." his hips circled and humped into you with small but quick moments, and his voice became much more stuttery "thank you, oh fuck thank you. this was all i wanted today. only this. only you."
"you're so dumb." you hum, but theres not a hint of malice in your words. "youre welcome, baby" your hand slides down his neck, down his clothed chest, and over his pretty waist. you press a heated kiss to his mouth. his lips are soft like a girl's, and he always opens his mouth a little first, inviting you in. your hand is eventually at the waistband of his sweats, teasing the skin under it.
hes not quiet, just muffled. and as much as youd love to take your time and ruin him slowly and excruciatingly, the growing anxiety of kaminari playing dumb and trying to come in to 'make sure you guys are okay' was getting to you.
reluctantly, you pull away from him, but your hand stays provoking him. "here are the rules. if you want me to touch you, we have to finish it up quickly before it ruins the mood of that stupid ass party."
"so you do think it's stupid." he grins boyishly, eyes glinting with the same mischievousness that made you fall in love with him. his hips are leaning way more into your hand now that you're finally giving him the attention.
you sigh, but you can feel yourself smiling. you can't help but adore his antics, "sure, katsuki. if you think its stupid, then i think its stupid too. now tell me, how long are you going to let kaminari fantasize and add further details to what he thinks we're doing ? dont forget midoriya's puppy crush on you either, he might break and join in." you smile wider, but now its much more condescending.
if it weren't for how conniving you were, he wouldve been turned off just at kaminari's name. "yes, fuck, yes. i promise." he whined out, delirious at this point, "anything for you, pleasedontsayhisnameagain, anything. ill do anything please, please, please just touch me."
you laugh, you can't tell if he's trying to be funny, but youre amused either way. finally, you pull his pants down just far enough to reveal his boxers. the fabric was strained and stretched from trying to contain his hard on for this long, and you could see the distinct outline of his tip through all the precum leaking through. "soooo prettyyyy" you coo, praise being the ultimate form of humiliation for him. the pad of your thumb is circling his frenulum just soft enough to start building him up. his whining is just a little high pitched and slow but long. it almost sounds like he's in pain.
for whatever reason, a cord of reason and composure snaps within you. his eyes are gazing into yours like you just told him you put every grain of sand on the beach just for him, like you've given him the air he breathes. beads of sweat drip down his neck and forehead, while his ears and face are burning up. its all too much.
"fuck!" he's practically yelling as you suddenly switch your actions to fully pull cock out, letting your hand roam freely over its full body. he really didnt expect you to go for it just like that, even when you were keeping others waiting, you prioritized teasing him until he was as dazed as possible. "holy shit, thank you oh my god. thank you so much."
hes not even trying to whisper, and unlike most people, he doesn't really differentiate talking voicing and screaming. you kiss him roughly, letting your tongue roll over him and press his own around. you're basically bullying him. at this point, your fully jerking him off, using a harsh fast pace.
you're letting your hand go on autopilot, mainly focusing on collecting all the noise he was making with your own body. your other hand is cupping his cheek, holding him firmly in place, even though you know he'd never pull away. you want to feel him in your grasp, and he likes being held in it.
between breathes and small breaks hes crying out a small "i love you" with every one. his hands grip and massage wherever he can, flying from your chest, waist, hips, ass, thighs, anywhere he can find balance. his breath is getting broken and scarce, with his heart beating out of his quickly rising and falling chest.
the room is spinning, and you don't think there's any oxygen left anymore. for just a moment, it feels like its just the two of you laying together in your bed, only you, him, and this overwhelming feeling. you dont know why, but your chest feels so tight. like its about to explode all on its own, and you pull away just to admire katsuki as if it would help.
hes so pretty like this, cheeks stained with blush and tears, hair even more fucked up from getting dragged around and tugged. you move your hand down to the bottom of his shirt, and reach back up but under the material to his bare chest. you scratch relatively harsh down one of his bigger boobs, trying to imagine how the red marks look under his shirt. suddenly, his head tilts back, and your blood runs cold as you realize hes about to cum and his lips are totally not on yours.
well fuck ? it was worth it no matter what, how could it not be, when he was screaming your name for everyone to hear. now that shutting him up and killing him was out the window, you decided to focus on palming at his tip. it did nothing to stop his release from dripping down to the floor and onto your shorts, but atleast you saved your shirts from being totally ruined. you could probably figure out how to deal with that atleast.
relishing in his moans, you gave up on saving him the humiliation. it would make for an even hotter round at home anyway. "oh my god. i love you." he sobbed, throwing his head on your shoulder again.
you untangle your hand from its placement and softly but tantalizingly rub his shoulders. "what a pathetic whore, you can beg for me to touch you cant even look at me after you cum ? stop being a bi-"
before you could finish insulting your boyfriend, a knock was heard behind you, "oh god fucking damnit" he muttered. you were being so mean and of course it was getting interrupted.
"hey, are you guys okay ?" you hear kaminari's voice ring out, not a hint of concern to it. "I just wanted to make sure that you guys were okay you know, and.....
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tinyraptorhands · 4 months ago
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Whats In A (Nick) Name?
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It seemed a little...unfair.
Everyone in class 1-A got a nickname from Katsuki Bakugo. Ears, Shitty Hair, Icy Hot, Dunceface, Raccoon Eyes, Ponytail, Four Eyes, Deku....the list went on.
Everyone, except you-that is.
You two got along well enough. He...tolerated your presence more than most. So...why did he never give you a fun little nickname?!
Sure, maybe in the long run that was a good thing. It wasn't like what he nicknamed people were nice. (Seriously, Soysauce face?? Poor Sero. And Round cheeks? Ochako deserved better!) So. You did what any sane person would do.
You gave *him* nicknames.
"Ratsuki!" "Bakubeans!" "Bomberboy!" "Kit Kat!" "Katsudon!" "Bakustayawhile!" (Admittedly, the last one was pretty lame, but you were running out of ideas.)
And each time Katsuki gave you his signature glare and would huff and puff.
Classic.
And yet...you *still* hadn't earned a coveted Katsuki branded Nickname! It was just...either 'you' or your last name.
How boring.
"Y/N, I really don't understand why you're so adamant on getting him to give you a nickname." Tsuyu said to you one day as you both ate lunch.
"Seriously, it's kinda not a good thing." Ochako waved her chopsticks dismissively.
You shook your head. "No, see, you don't get it. *Everyone* has a nickname! And yet it's like I don't even register in his brain! I feel left out! An outcast! A reject!!"
"Thats...a little extreme, don't you think?" Midoriya sweatdropped, and Tenya nodded.
"Really! You should be grateful he isn't making fun of you or your quirk!" The class president said, hands chopping in their usual way.
Nah. You weren't buying it. Something was up. "Mark my words. I *will* have a nickname by the end of this year."
The four of them looked at you. You clearly were a lost cause.
And so, you continued to harass the ash blonde grump.
"Hey, Katsup!" You called out to him in the common room, passing by. Apparently, Katsuki had had enough.
"DAMMIT WHAT IS WITH THE STUPID ASS NAMES!? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!?" He finally snapped, veins pulsing in his head and neck, palms sparking.
Bingo.
"Well. You give everyone else a nickname." You deadpanned.
"So!? What makes you think I want or need one!?" Katsuki grunted, fingers twitching at his sides.
"Because you haven't given me one!"
He was silent. Almost gobsmacked, really.
"...What?" He finally spoke. You sighed as if it were a hassle to talk about.
"You've given *everyone* in class a nickname. Everyone except me. What's the deal??" You put your hands on your hips. "Am I just unworthy of your blessing??"
"B-blessing!? Are you stupid??" Katsuki pinched the bridge of his nose.
"No, just feeling left out-"
"You don't need one." He stated, cutting you off. You frowned.
"What?? Why not!?" You clenched your fists. "Aren't we friends!?"
"Thats not the poi-"
"Am I just some dumb forgettable extra?!"
"Will you shut u-"
"Just tell m-"
He suddenly came up to you, grabbing you by the shoulders. He gave you a look that could kill, and you swallowed.
"You want a nickname?" He asked, voice low. You blushed at his proximity, but nodded. "Fine. But you should know, I didn't give you one for a reason."
You blinked, and cocked your head. "...Why?"
He shook his head. "Because you're too good for a nickname. And if I gave you one..." he blushed, "I'd want it to mean something special. To mean..." he looked down, taking a slow breath through his nose. "...Dammit. I'd want it to mean you were mine."
Oh.
You felt your face heat up.
"...Yeah?" You squeaked out. He nodded.
"Yeah. So....if you want a nickname..." His eyes met yours, "y'gotta be mine, first."
You bit your lip, blushing. "...Okay. Then...I'll be yours."
He smirked. "Good choice...Sweetheart."
((I will get the last part of You Scratch My Back out soon. I just had this stuck in my head forever. I honestly was stuck on what he could call the reader, so if you dont like Sweetheart, you could easily replace it. I was thinking sunshine, but that's kinda specific, so...yeah.))
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